My Retreat
you ever start to shake uncontrollably and fell like your insides were falling away from your body one by one? yeah, that was me after retreat.
i don't know what was wrong with me but as we sat there in the last half hour i felt that if i tried to stand i would collapse. I've never wanted to grab someone and hold onto them with the intent of keeping myself from falling apart that viciously before.... is vicious right? it was so intense, if i had been able to move i would have run out of that place.
it didn't even have anything to do with what was going on... at least not what was being sad. i'm so tired of that stuff, hearing it and pretending to care and watching these people that folllow the faith but don't know anything about it. "We're americans, we have the privilage to deny god" do you really think those kids are in there for good reasons? they get fed by the church and it gives them something to blame, and something to hope for, that's why they're there. it's true we are privilaged but that doesn't mean that we're wrong.
ugh...suffocating with no reason to. unable to stand. what fun.
i don't know what was wrong with me but as we sat there in the last half hour i felt that if i tried to stand i would collapse. I've never wanted to grab someone and hold onto them with the intent of keeping myself from falling apart that viciously before.... is vicious right? it was so intense, if i had been able to move i would have run out of that place.
it didn't even have anything to do with what was going on... at least not what was being sad. i'm so tired of that stuff, hearing it and pretending to care and watching these people that folllow the faith but don't know anything about it. "We're americans, we have the privilage to deny god" do you really think those kids are in there for good reasons? they get fed by the church and it gives them something to blame, and something to hope for, that's why they're there. it's true we are privilaged but that doesn't mean that we're wrong.
ugh...suffocating with no reason to. unable to stand. what fun.