this is where i want to be...

[despondntlyalve]

this week was hectic and revealing. i took perhaps the most enlightening health care field class i've ever taken. i met some really amazing people and learned a few things about myself. i think my last post was about my issues with being here and wanting to know where i am going already and fucking go! i'm still in the same place, and this class might have exacerbated that feeling a little more. plus, reading katie's blog did more of the same. however, yesterday morning, for whatever reason, i chose an ani cd to listen to on my long trip across town to my class. when joyful girl came on, i received perhaps my first relief from this feeling of longing to be somewhere else. i listened to it, related and was reminded of why ani is so amazing. i'm going to post the lyrics here, just to spread the love.

I do it for the joy it brings
Because I'm a joyful girl
Because the world owes me nothing
And we owe each other the world
I do it because it's the least I can do
I do it because I learned it from you
I do it just because I want to
Because I want to

Everything I do is judged
And they mostly get it wrong
But oh well
'Cuz the bathroom mirror has not budged
And the woman who lives there can tell
The truth from the stuff that they say
And she looks me in the eye
And says would you prefer the easy way?
No, well O.K. then
Don't cry

And I wonder if everything I do
I do instead of something I want to do more
The question fills my head
I know that there's no grand plan here
This is just the way it goes
And when everything else seems unclear
I guess at least I know

I do it for the joy it brings...

a list of last things i need to do before i leave is definitely being formulated.
i can't wait!

oh yea, i got my diploma today... woot.