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[despondntlyalve]

i've been spending a lot of time by myself lately. i am finding that friends are even uninvited to this place i'm creating for myself. i am unsure how long it will last, but it is definitely here to stay for now. my little moments with friends are quickly ended by my need to be alone. most of the time when i am alone i sleep, or just lie in bed. sometimes i get up with a small burst of energy and attempt to clean my room or get rid of shit, but that is often ended by a meaningless distraction, such as this journal entry.

i hope its not depression.

i think it is a realization that i am leaving soon and i have way too much shit to do and not enough energy or care to complete it all.

not sure.

that's all.