It is difficult to describe his reaction to hearing her speak, to looking at her and knowing, knowing what she is feeling. He does not have to guess at it. Robin is connected to her, and he has been for such a long time now (not nearly long enough), and he feels it too. It has never been anything that he was capable of describing, how one person can be connected so intensely to another.
It is why telling her how he feels is even more difficult when he is looking at her face, because he is feeling both their reactions to his words. His gaze scans her face, noting the tears on her face and the expression as she takes it all in. If this wasn't such a sacred moment, he would give into the urge to kiss her but he seems to understand that the kiss is what seals these vows.
In the end, it is probably silly. They never needed the wedding. They felt these things without it and they made promises to each other outside the church that they would have kept without it. However, this moment... There is something about it despite how often he has said that marriage is overrated and unnecessary. There is this feeling of culmination and of a beginning too.
It is stating those promises in a way that the entire world knows of them, and Robin has never been more happy to do so. The world will know how he feels. The world will know that he has promised himself to her and her alone. There is no one else that he wants to spend the rest of his life with. Does the universe hear it? It does not matter if it agrees or if it doesn't.
This has never been about anyone else, certainly not the rest of the world. It is theirs and theirs exclusively. When his hand reaches for hers, he knows that she will always reach back and hold on. It is something that is private even when this ceremony is supposed to be more for the rest of the worlds benefit than their own.
In the future, he will be able to look back on this moment. There is much darkness ahead. There is a fight and a war ahead. In Chicago, there will always be these things. However, nothing can take this moment from them. He will look back on it often, remember how quiet and how good he felt to express his feelings out loud and seal it all as a truth that cannot be denied. He will remember the peace that he felt here and remember what it is that he is fighting for.
My turn? She asks in that voice. In that voice, and it is enough to twist his heart, not painfully at all but good. There is nothing that he feels right now that isn't good, that isn't absolutely amazing.
There is another moment that he feels uncomfortable. His head lowers, and he does not know if he can face her while she says all of these things about him. It has nothing to do with shame and everything to do with how he was built and what he was made to believe. However, he takes in a strengthening breath.
He has been through situations much tougher than facing the woman that he loves more than anything as she describes her feelings for him.
Robin lifts his head again and settles his gaze on her face. He is not planning on looking away, not once as he listens to her speak. The tears that she had wiped away return when she begins to speak. His throat tightens, and he relives those moments with her. The moment that they first met. He does not know why he was able to offer his hand to her even then, even then but he did.
The connection has been present from the start. It is why his interactions with her have always been different than they were with anyone else. It is why he has always been able to be more open in her presence about what he is feeling and about who he is. There were rarely any walls up when she was near and speaking to him.
It is why telling her how he feels is even more difficult when he is looking at her face, because he is feeling both their reactions to his words. His gaze scans her face, noting the tears on her face and the expression as she takes it all in. If this wasn't such a sacred moment, he would give into the urge to kiss her but he seems to understand that the kiss is what seals these vows.
In the end, it is probably silly. They never needed the wedding. They felt these things without it and they made promises to each other outside the church that they would have kept without it. However, this moment... There is something about it despite how often he has said that marriage is overrated and unnecessary. There is this feeling of culmination and of a beginning too.
It is stating those promises in a way that the entire world knows of them, and Robin has never been more happy to do so. The world will know how he feels. The world will know that he has promised himself to her and her alone. There is no one else that he wants to spend the rest of his life with. Does the universe hear it? It does not matter if it agrees or if it doesn't.
This has never been about anyone else, certainly not the rest of the world. It is theirs and theirs exclusively. When his hand reaches for hers, he knows that she will always reach back and hold on. It is something that is private even when this ceremony is supposed to be more for the rest of the worlds benefit than their own.
In the future, he will be able to look back on this moment. There is much darkness ahead. There is a fight and a war ahead. In Chicago, there will always be these things. However, nothing can take this moment from them. He will look back on it often, remember how quiet and how good he felt to express his feelings out loud and seal it all as a truth that cannot be denied. He will remember the peace that he felt here and remember what it is that he is fighting for.
My turn? She asks in that voice. In that voice, and it is enough to twist his heart, not painfully at all but good. There is nothing that he feels right now that isn't good, that isn't absolutely amazing.
There is another moment that he feels uncomfortable. His head lowers, and he does not know if he can face her while she says all of these things about him. It has nothing to do with shame and everything to do with how he was built and what he was made to believe. However, he takes in a strengthening breath.
He has been through situations much tougher than facing the woman that he loves more than anything as she describes her feelings for him.
Robin lifts his head again and settles his gaze on her face. He is not planning on looking away, not once as he listens to her speak. The tears that she had wiped away return when she begins to speak. His throat tightens, and he relives those moments with her. The moment that they first met. He does not know why he was able to offer his hand to her even then, even then but he did.
The connection has been present from the start. It is why his interactions with her have always been different than they were with anyone else. It is why he has always been able to be more open in her presence about what he is feeling and about who he is. There were rarely any walls up when she was near and speaking to him.
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