RANDOM THOUGHTS
writing about this shit is absolutely retarded but what ever i dont have anything else better to do...
my head is spinning crazy like..i dont even know what im thinking half the time
too much info...to many thoughts
im trying to process
im pissed when i wake up im pissed off through out the day..im pissed right before i go to sleep..im pissed while dreaming if you can call it that ..hey im even pissed of right now
typical teenage angst you say
yah sure but jesus fucking christ sometimes
its wayyyy to much for me to handle
i hate my ex girlfriend i love my ex girlfriend...i want to be back with her..but i know for a fact that will never happen..thiers too much shit shes done to ever be able to get us back together
but then again if she wanted to go back out id probabley say yes
just so she can fuck up more shit
i can see it now
5 years from now a ring a ding ding and a rat a tat tat on my fucking door
it will be her
shell say shes sorry
ill forgive her
but i wont forget
shell want to get married
we will get married
the cycle will continue
we will have kids like we planned
and they will grow to hate me because i will probabley beat the fuck outta my wife everyday
i wanted a simple life
no tests
just a simple life a nice childhood good teenage years a wealthy and prosperous life
with a wife and kids
thats all gone into a cluster fuck to where shit i dont see that happening
im not gonna blame myself
im going to blame god like i always do
replace the blame make me guilt free just like bri ambers been doing on a daily basis
shes leading an awesome life partying drugs sex you name it
at the expense of her selfworth
does she care
nahh
i doubt it
is she thinking about me
nah
i doubt it
these are all random thoughts so if you were looking for some sort of stability
im sorry
but im really not
i could give a fuck when i really do care
i miss her like whoa
it gets worse everyday while everyone leads a life care free / happy
i stand the same person i was 2 years ago
and its getting old
i want to change i try to change im strong but im weak
its getting rather fucking annoying
when i do get something handed to me that is good
its not enough
it never will be
make me be able to cope or make me die
one of the 2 just pick cause im going fucking nutty
god all u gotta do it turn the tick tock back
and let me get my life back
thats all i ask
for fucks sake
enough!! is enough!!
my head is spinning crazy like..i dont even know what im thinking half the time
too much info...to many thoughts
im trying to process
im pissed when i wake up im pissed off through out the day..im pissed right before i go to sleep..im pissed while dreaming if you can call it that ..hey im even pissed of right now
typical teenage angst you say
yah sure but jesus fucking christ sometimes
its wayyyy to much for me to handle
i hate my ex girlfriend i love my ex girlfriend...i want to be back with her..but i know for a fact that will never happen..thiers too much shit shes done to ever be able to get us back together
but then again if she wanted to go back out id probabley say yes
just so she can fuck up more shit
i can see it now
5 years from now a ring a ding ding and a rat a tat tat on my fucking door
it will be her
shell say shes sorry
ill forgive her
but i wont forget
shell want to get married
we will get married
the cycle will continue
we will have kids like we planned
and they will grow to hate me because i will probabley beat the fuck outta my wife everyday
i wanted a simple life
no tests
just a simple life a nice childhood good teenage years a wealthy and prosperous life
with a wife and kids
thats all gone into a cluster fuck to where shit i dont see that happening
im not gonna blame myself
im going to blame god like i always do
replace the blame make me guilt free just like bri ambers been doing on a daily basis
shes leading an awesome life partying drugs sex you name it
at the expense of her selfworth
does she care
nahh
i doubt it
is she thinking about me
nah
i doubt it
these are all random thoughts so if you were looking for some sort of stability
im sorry
but im really not
i could give a fuck when i really do care
i miss her like whoa
it gets worse everyday while everyone leads a life care free / happy
i stand the same person i was 2 years ago
and its getting old
i want to change i try to change im strong but im weak
its getting rather fucking annoying
when i do get something handed to me that is good
its not enough
it never will be
make me be able to cope or make me die
one of the 2 just pick cause im going fucking nutty
god all u gotta do it turn the tick tock back
and let me get my life back
thats all i ask
for fucks sake
enough!! is enough!!