trains derail
Happy easter. I spent most of the day sitting in my room watching bad movies online and stupid documentaries on TV. I had an emotional breakdown during the first part of the day, which led to me cleaning my room. I finally took down my Christmas tree. It was a big deal. It was the last thing that I have that really reminded me of Jimmy and I. I cried the whole time I was taking it down. But after that, I felt kind of refreshed.
Later on I was finishing up cleaning and my uncle called and told me my Grandma was in the hospital. She's having lung problems, and they keep finding more problems since she's been there. I'm going to see her Wednesday. Hopefully she'll pull through. I'd be a wreck if something happened to her.
If there is a god, or any type of higher power, I'm convinced that he's out to get me. I'm convinced that I'll never find peace. I'm convinced that I'll never be satisfied. I'm convinced that I don't stand a change.
Someone give me hope. Someone give me faith.
Later on I was finishing up cleaning and my uncle called and told me my Grandma was in the hospital. She's having lung problems, and they keep finding more problems since she's been there. I'm going to see her Wednesday. Hopefully she'll pull through. I'd be a wreck if something happened to her.
If there is a god, or any type of higher power, I'm convinced that he's out to get me. I'm convinced that I'll never find peace. I'm convinced that I'll never be satisfied. I'm convinced that I don't stand a change.
Someone give me hope. Someone give me faith.