Winter

[ohazhuremylove]

  They are all there - her husband, his father, her children, and the other Enchanters. Azhure opens her mouth to speak, and then...  The song is like nothing she's ever heard. Her father, WolfStar, that madman. He has done this, somehow, ripped her from her very reality and put her quite somewhere else. She can remember the cold of winter that

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[adoe_adeer]

Theoretically, Faraday understands why Axis had to do what she did. Theoretically, she gets why she had to die. Theoretically, she likes Azhure and doesn't blame her for taking her place with the man she once loved and thus condemning her to a cold and horrible death.

'Theoretical' is not getting her very far right now.

Hair wrapped up around her head, she stares blankly and with potent disbelief. Oh no no no. Not in her special little sanctuary. Not now that she's starting to make a life. Not again.

For the moment, though, a familiar, red-brown haired woman, dressed in rather practical if drab clothing, is staring nearly open-mouthed.

Hiiii and welcome! :D

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure was minding her own business up until this point, until she tries to focus at the woman that she glimpses. It couldn't be -

Oh, Stars! Was everything Azhure ever did just made to look like she was stalking Farady?

"I... "

And she stops, because Azhure has no real idea of what to say. Farady was here first, yet again, and then Azhure was there, traipsing around and ruining things.

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday thinks so too, honestly, but now she is - feeling guilty for it, because Azhure looks so confused, and she remembers what it was like when she first came here (terrified, alone, recently dead) and doesn't want anyone else to feel like that, naturally good-natured girl that she is...

She settles for a curtsy, deferring, of course, to her betters. "Lady SunSoar." For now, she casts her eyes down, trying to mask her own conflicted feelings.

[ohazhuremylove]

"....Farady," she says softly. Her eyes brim with tears and she covers her mouth to hide her emotions, though it doesn't do much good. Farady as usual it seemed was going to be her diplomatic self, and Azhure wasn't sure if she could take it.

"I didn't mean to be here," she finally says, voice barely a whisper. Azhure wasn't a cruel woman, not by nature - she hadn't even meant to kill her own abusive father. How did she always end up right in the middle of Farady's plots?

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday carefully does not look up and is pretending she isn't aware of how upset Azhure is, because her other options are trying to comfort her - which feels hollow - or spitting venom, which would be unkind. She keeps her head down, letting her chestnut mane hide her face. "I know, Lady. No one means to be here, I do not think."

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure manages some composure over herself, and looks away for a moment as she tries to quell her stomach. She feels like she's going to vomit, but she's not going to, of course. Perhaps later when she's alone.

"Do you know why?" she asks, finding her voice. Stars, but this was so awkward.

[adoe_adeer]

"I - no. I don't know." She sounds almost embarrassed. "I am sorry - for my ignorance, Lady."

[ohazhuremylove]

"No, Farady, it's not your fault!" she exclaims, resisting the urge to pull the woman into a hug. She feels it would be a most unwelcome sort of advance, considering the two technically were rivals, although Azhure did not feel any malice or rivalry or - well, anything of the sort.

She wonders if, since Farady is here, this is not the place that one goes when they die. Suddenly Azhure's wondering if she's dead, and she pales a little more than normal. "Have you found this place to be bearable?" she asks, suddenly wanting to sit down a great deal.

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday's hands twist together in a knot, uncomfortably, still keeping her eyes down. "I have - yes, found it bearable, Lady. And suitable." I've been happy, I've been getting better...

She doesn't say any of that, though. It's not animosity, really, it's more complicated than that - just sort of a bitter envy and sorrow that she can't quite let go of. And anger, but it's so buried she will most likely never express it.

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure hates how clearly Farady is stuffing her emotions down, and she holds back a sigh on her behalf. She's at a total loss, and so she gestures to a direction that's not where she's standing.

"I should... go." She pauses. "I really didn't mean to be here. I hope you believe me. I will try to stay out of your way, Farady. This is... your home. I'm just a guest," she says, trying to reassure her? She doesn't know what, but she's going to slowly make her way ----> that way, and do her best not to appear like a cat who's just been scolded in the process.

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday looks startled, a little. "I'm sorry," vaguely, "I did not mean - to make you feel unwelcome? This place is as much yours as mine..." Probably more so, everything is. "I wouldn't...I wouldn't have you feel as though you are - unwelcome," she repeats, awkwardly. Ugh.

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure turns to look at Farady, unwilling to believe what she is hearing. "Farady, stop saying that. You didn't make me feel unwelcome, I have made myself feel unwelcome. You were here first, and for once, I've got a grasp of that knowledge and I'm going to do with it what I should do, and I'm going to just back out of here and let you have your life."

She's frustrated, but not at Farady. "I know that we can never be friends, because if this was reversed I know that I am not a good enough woman to say I'd be so gracious, and I won't ask to put you through that, but Farady, please believe me," she pleads. "I want you to be happy here, because I made you unhappy there, and - "

She stops. She feels like she's repeating herself, but somehow if she phrases it the right way, maybe it will "fix" Farady, make her feel less bad.

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday nearly flinches, shies away, not wanting to talk about that, not wanting to think about that, about a past she does her best to avoid every day, always. But yes, yes, she wants to say, on the other hand, yes, it's all true, and now, and now-

But she can't, not and be her. She looks down again. "You aren't...putting me through anything. It isn't a matter of - it doesn't matter, all right? Others were here before me and others will come after..."

She trails off, a little, not sure how to say what she's trying to, not even sure if she wants to try to say it. It's not forgiveness; it's too passive for that. Just a desire not to argue and not to distress anyone, not anymore.

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure is clearly deflated. "It matters to me," is all she can finally utter. She tugs at her black hair, feeling entirely useless at the moment. Azhure SunSoar, Icarii Enchanter, moon goddess! She was standing in front of the woman whose life she'd ruined - repeatedly (though never on purpose)- and all she could do was fuss with the ends of her hair like a nervous sprat.

OOC:(The really funny part is that I've read the entire series and I actually squealed loudly at the end and threw my book in glee when that thing happens with Farady and Katie and the maze)

[adoe_adeer]

Faraday just shakes her head a little, shy and withdrawn back into herself again, visibly smaller than she was. Aware again of her status and her stature. She bites her lip a little. "It shouldn't."

ooc: As a Faraday lover, I felt so vindicated at the end of the second series. XD

[ohazhuremylove]

Azhure resists taking the bait (which Farady doesn't intend as bait but to Azhure it is much in the way of) and just shrugs. What more can she say? She stands there silently, unable to think of any other way to convince Farady that she has the right to be happy and if she wants, Azhure might even let her slap her in the face.

OOC: (I'm an Azhure lover first, but Farady was always with a special spot. I have to admit, I really hated Axis for what he did to Azhure when she was carrying the twins. After that, I was like, 'Nope, you're a bastard.' and I hoped Farady stabbed him in the face.)