there's no more trying to make this so right, there's no more trying tonight.
Well I think it is offically now safe to say that I am feeling much better, thank god. It is also very appeasing that things in the other catigories such as health, social, and physical are doing very well also. Everything is comming together finally like the pieces to a puzzle and it is making me very happy. Things are how they are supposed to be for the most part, I only have a month of probation left too, that is if I don't get in any trouble OR fail anymore of my drug tests. I pretty gave up on my love life, there was no hope so I will just let nature take it course and let what happens, happen. School still hasen't gotten all that much better but still a big improvement from last years sleeping in class constantly and not doing any of my work. At least I put fourth somewhat of an effort now, which is apparently still not enough to pass but I am working on it. I guess it might help if I did most of the homework instead of just what I get done in class. I have changed a few of my selected friends a while ago and it has most definetly made a positive impact on my life. I can now have fun without breaking the law constantly. I still see a few of the old friends, which is always good because I miss them dearly but just not as frequently as in the past. Life has gotten so good lately that the constant depression that I used to have has actually diminished completely, which is also of course a great relif. I have made the desicion that I am going to stop writing poetry. This was very hard for me to deside on because I am not going to lie, I do love doing it very much, but my mom doesn't like the way I choose to express my feelings. She calls it "Morbid". Whatever it may have been, that is the past. I will find other ways to express myself now. I am starting to get used to my new haircut, which is a lot sooner than it was before, But I still miss my long hair to death. I am starting to make a lot of positive choices in life now, I can tell it is helping so I will keep that up and stop screwing up with my mom so I can keep this bond of trust she has with me now. I miss my old updates like this one so you will most likely be seeing quite a few more of them, so be ready to read. Thanks for listening