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[desolatexheart]

Well, I've managed to crawl back to the livejournal website after quite some time. It's time for an update. I waited too long to write my thoughts down from last night, so hopefully they come out right at this time. It seems to me that no matter how much effort you put into things you'll never get the full one hundred percent of what you want out

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My Savior

[desolatexheart]

I NEVER LEFT, I JUST TOOK A WALK BY MYSELF, I LET MYSELF LINGERE IN THE SHADOWS WAITING FOR YOUR ATTENTION AGAIN.
Wow. I feel so horrible. I haven't been seeing with both eyes lately. It seems I've been too caught up in what's bothering me in the present that I don't even think of the good I have on the outside. I hate that we've kept this distance. I really do. I know none of it was done intentionally. Here I am bitching about other people having their own priorities and never having enough time when I need it the most, yet I'm doing the same exact thing. I do have a reason to wake up every morning. The reason is still you. It amazes me how long you've stuck by my side. Just recently, more and more every day I come across little things that remind me of you. It's ironic, really. Tomorrow is another day. I come across that phrase in lyrics mostly, of course. You'd think that's where I found it, but it's not. YOUR GETTING ALL THE NOBODIES TO MEAN EVERYTHING TO YOU WHEN THE EVERYTHINGS ARE DYING FOR YOUR ATTENTION. I never thought about it that way, but lately that's the way it seems. I pushed myself away from the people that gave me equal attention, and let myself drift away to the ones that could care less and just need someone to lean back on as some sort of crutch. You never cease to read in between the lines and show me the reality of what this all really means. THANK YOU ANG. We need to take that drive soon. Love you.

-Liv

Remember to always shine on.

[_dontletmedown_]

IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT, IT WAS JUST SOMETHING TO REALIZE. THAT'S NORMAL. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US SOMETIME IN OUR LIFE TAKES FOR GRANTED THE GOOD THAT WE HAVE. OR MAYBE NOT EVEN THAT, THEY'LL JUST CONCENTRATE ON WHAT THEY THINK IS THE GOOD &NOT REALIZE THE TRUE VALUE THEY POSSESS. TRUST ME, I DON'T LIKE ANY MORE THAN YOU DO; THIS DISTANCE. LIV, I'M NOT TELLING YOU TO JUST DROP WHAT YOU HAVE NOW TO FIND SOMETHING ELSE, THAT'S NOT IT AT ALL. I'M JUST TELLING YOU OR SUGGESTING THAT YOU OPEN YOUR EYES TO MORE THAN JUST ONE THING. AS LONG AS I LIVE, I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE TO GIVE YOU THAT EXTRA PUSH TO WAKE UP, TO PUSH YOU BACK INTO REALITY, TO PROVE TO YOU THAT YOUR BETTER THAN WHAT YOU THINK. WE NEVER REALIZE WHAT SOMETHING IS UNTIL SOMEBODY POINTS IT OUT. IT'S NOT THAT THEY DON'T CARE, IT'S JUST THEY CARE MORE ABOUT THEMSELVES THAN ANYBODY ELSE. TRUST ME, THOSE AREN'T THE TYPE OF PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SURROUND YOURSELF WITH. THROUGH IT ALL, YOU KNOW I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE. I'LL BE THAT VOICE IN YOUR HEAD TRYING TO POINT YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. YES, WE DO NEED TO TAKE THAT DRIVE SOON. THERE'S SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT. I LOVE YOU TOO.

-Ang,