(no subject)
Alright so I wrote in here a week ago, i said i'd keep this up but I knew that wouldn't really happen. One week though, not bad. Things are pretty much still the same. This past weekend was probably the best I've had since everything's happened. Friday night went to pauls with everyone, it was fun. Then Saturday did the same thing, and went to a haunted house with some people and back to pauls. I'm only happy and normal when I'm around those people. Everyone else.. blah. I'm still having a hard time with things though, but I know I should just stop thinking so much about it. It's so hard not to though...
The next few months I'm going to be looking at colleges. I hope I get accepted somewhere far away. I want to be done with the nonsense here. Not that it's awful in Germantown, its just not the place for me. I want to go to Stout possibly, 4 hours away, a good distance. I don't want to be surrounded by anyone from high school when I go to college, with the exception of about 6 people, one of them would be lindsey because she's also my other half. My halves basically consist of Lindsey, Seb and then myself obviously, so of course I want her with me. And no, I'm not a lesbian. I actually don't have feelings for anyone right now. I usually always really try hard to make relationships work for me, and I try hard to find someone right for me and I just see why I cared so much about that for so long. Who cares. I just love my friends so much. It's hard to concentrate on anything else right now besides them.
I really need to find a job too, that'd be wonderful. I got fired from my last job...bogus. It's funny how everything just has to get screwed up all at the same time, just to make everything so much easier, you know? Whatever though.
So today I'm doing nothing, except for this, and trying to find a job. Exciting I know. Now I need to go smoke a cigarette and enjoy the weather outside, because I'm sick of laying around my house.