to help you fuckerrrs understand.

[desolatedxx]

It’s just one of those things that smothers you; something that chokes you, so you can’t breathe. It’s one of those things that watches over your shoulders as you eat, as you sleep, as you take a shower. It watches you, waiting until you’re so weak, you have no way out. You’ve sold your soul to it, time after time, after time. After a while, you’ve lost your friends to it. You’ve sold your grades to it. You’ve given up your family, your relationships, your talents... Everything. It will always win, and always has. So you try to wean yourself off. You begin to tremble, you begin to feel weak, craving it. It becomes more than an addiction, it becomes a high- euphoria, orgasm, ecstasy. It’s one of those things that can be your best friend one moment, and your enemy the next. Soon, it consumes all of you. You begin to think of things that have hurt you in the past, so you can use them as an excuse for selling your soul to it, once more. It becomes all you think about-- dream about. You lose yourself in it. You begin to forget who you are, what you like, and what you’ve become. You’ve sacrificed it all for one little cut, just to say you can still feel- just so you know you’re still alive.

<3 Dan