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I'm really sad, and I can't stop crying. It's pathetic. But I was so excited. And now, nothing.
There is nothing anyone can say that's going to make me feel better about this.
Everything keeps reminding me. I'm being told not to forget. I just wish I could go somwhere else. Be someone else. Until it's over.
I miss what we had. I feel like shit.
I'm not awaiting forgiveness, I know that (undeservedly) there is none there. I just don't know what to do.
I could try every day until it's over, but I'm not sure that's the best idea.
I could just ignore it, and hope it stops hurting.
But I can't.
There is nothing anyone can say that's going to make me feel better about this.
Everything keeps reminding me. I'm being told not to forget. I just wish I could go somwhere else. Be someone else. Until it's over.
I miss what we had. I feel like shit.
I'm not awaiting forgiveness, I know that (undeservedly) there is none there. I just don't know what to do.
I could try every day until it's over, but I'm not sure that's the best idea.
I could just ignore it, and hope it stops hurting.
But I can't.