Suddenly.......I don't feel so desolate anymore
For once in my life I'm realizing that I have REAL equals.
Not the people that say we're cool, or we're friends, or they love me, and prove exactly the opposite.
Granted I have no problems with the friends.
However I don't appreciate being lied to about so many different things that I've been lied to about in the past.
I'm sick of being the doormat for people.
And, I'm sick of seeing certain people walked on as well.
But, I stay out of everyone else's issues, and expect the same from everyone else.
I expect certain people to stay out of mine, especially people like Melissa, and V, and others.
But, they're not my issue anymore either.
Melissa proved herself a backstabber long ago...maybe not to some....but to me...definately.
But, I've come to realize by speaking with some people lately, that there is shit that's worth a lot more than friends that stab you in the back, or lie to you, or talk shit when you're not face to face.
There is more than an ex-girlfriend who uses you as a quick piece of ass and affection.
And, quite frankly I don't care what they think of what I have to say.
I'm living for myself now.
I don't care that Iris isn't coming back.
Don't get me wrong, I love her more than anything, and I'd still kill anyone that hurts her.
But, she's proven what I REALLY mean to her.
She's proven how much of an 'important' part of her life that I am.
She's no better than some of those who she hangs out with, like Mellisa.
And, I don't care if the sex a couple weeks ago had no meaning to her, it just proves what some people think of her, now.
Jon, she's all yours.
Gene's my fuckin' brother, but I'm never gonna get to see him anymore.
And, maybe it's my own fault, maybe it's others fault.
But, Gene Lee, if you see this, think about what's goin' on, man.
I'll always stick by you, bro. But, I hope you're usin' your head right now.
Cuz' I don't wanna lose another brother over some bullshit, like what's been happening lately.
I've been reading things and talking to people, lately, that have helped me realize that I don't need the bullshit anymore.
That I have the heart, and talent, and intelligence to do what I NEED TO DO TO SURVIVE.
And, I know that I can make something of myself.
And, the way I've been treated these last few months has just fueled the fire more and more.
I have nothing but a heart full of rage right now.
But, I have a place to put it.
And, none of the people who have wronged me lately, are worth my vengence.
This is MY life, this is MY heart. IT DOESN'T BELONG TO ANYONE ELSE ANYMORE.
GOD IS A FRAUD!!!
RISE AND OVERCOME!!!
F.T.W.
Not the people that say we're cool, or we're friends, or they love me, and prove exactly the opposite.
Granted I have no problems with the friends.
However I don't appreciate being lied to about so many different things that I've been lied to about in the past.
I'm sick of being the doormat for people.
And, I'm sick of seeing certain people walked on as well.
But, I stay out of everyone else's issues, and expect the same from everyone else.
I expect certain people to stay out of mine, especially people like Melissa, and V, and others.
But, they're not my issue anymore either.
Melissa proved herself a backstabber long ago...maybe not to some....but to me...definately.
But, I've come to realize by speaking with some people lately, that there is shit that's worth a lot more than friends that stab you in the back, or lie to you, or talk shit when you're not face to face.
There is more than an ex-girlfriend who uses you as a quick piece of ass and affection.
And, quite frankly I don't care what they think of what I have to say.
I'm living for myself now.
I don't care that Iris isn't coming back.
Don't get me wrong, I love her more than anything, and I'd still kill anyone that hurts her.
But, she's proven what I REALLY mean to her.
She's proven how much of an 'important' part of her life that I am.
She's no better than some of those who she hangs out with, like Mellisa.
And, I don't care if the sex a couple weeks ago had no meaning to her, it just proves what some people think of her, now.
Jon, she's all yours.
Gene's my fuckin' brother, but I'm never gonna get to see him anymore.
And, maybe it's my own fault, maybe it's others fault.
But, Gene Lee, if you see this, think about what's goin' on, man.
I'll always stick by you, bro. But, I hope you're usin' your head right now.
Cuz' I don't wanna lose another brother over some bullshit, like what's been happening lately.
I've been reading things and talking to people, lately, that have helped me realize that I don't need the bullshit anymore.
That I have the heart, and talent, and intelligence to do what I NEED TO DO TO SURVIVE.
And, I know that I can make something of myself.
And, the way I've been treated these last few months has just fueled the fire more and more.
I have nothing but a heart full of rage right now.
But, I have a place to put it.
And, none of the people who have wronged me lately, are worth my vengence.
This is MY life, this is MY heart. IT DOESN'T BELONG TO ANYONE ELSE ANYMORE.
GOD IS A FRAUD!!!
RISE AND OVERCOME!!!
F.T.W.