I don't fuckin' care what goes here...
No meaning?
I know you better than that.
If it had no meaning...you wouldn't have done it.
Things like that just don't have meaning.
Things like that happen for a reason.
Funny thing is...I'd do again.
Knowing you were thinking of someone else.
Like I said, if it kept me close to you.
The pain is nothing compared to what I've felt before.
Because of you.
I hate myself more and more everyday.
It's getting worse.
And worse.
People hate me because of what I did to you.
I just want to change it all.
But, I can't
I can't change a goddamned thing.
All because I was a fucking asshole.
A dumb, retarded fucking asshole.
I don't care anymore.
You make me feel like I want to kill myself.
Professional help isn't what I need.
I don't hate myself for any other reason anymore.
Not my family.
Not my friends.
You.
You're my problem.
No one else.
I sat here.
Hoping.
Holding faith.
Crying myself to sleep everynight because of you.
Because I hate myself.
Because I love you so much.
I love you so much, it makes me hate you.
My shaking never stops.
My life never ends.
I didn't even want you to come back right now.
I just wanted to know if it was possible ever again.
I just wanted to hear you say.."Maybe, someday."
But, I can't fucking deal with it anymore.
I never should have gotten involved with you.
It's like the only thing that will save me anymore is if I kill myself.
I hate everything about myself because of YOU.
I don't blame you for my problems.
I blame myself.....because if I wouldn't have been in love with you I wouldn't have any problems.
I stuck around for you.
I stayed in this piece of shit town for you.
Not for my friends.
Not for my family.
For you.
And, I can't leave now.
SO I SIT AND ROT....BECAUSE OF YOU.
JUST FUCKING TELL ME YOU HATE ME.
SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT ME.
SO YOU CAN THINK OF OTHERS ALL YOU WANT.
SO THAT I CAN HATE YOU IN PEACE.
I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU FUCKED ME UP.
BEYOND RECOGNITION.
I CAN'T LOOK IN THE MIRROR.
I CAN'T LOOK ANYONE IN THE EYES.
I'M WALKING AROUND EVERYDAY....HOPING SOMEONE HITS ME.
HOPING MY LIFE ENDS SOON SO THAT YOU CAN LIVE YOURS WITHOUT ME BEING AROUND TO RUIN IT FOR YOU.
SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT LOVING SOMEONE WHO HATES ME.
FUCK YOU.
I know you better than that.
If it had no meaning...you wouldn't have done it.
Things like that just don't have meaning.
Things like that happen for a reason.
Funny thing is...I'd do again.
Knowing you were thinking of someone else.
Like I said, if it kept me close to you.
The pain is nothing compared to what I've felt before.
Because of you.
I hate myself more and more everyday.
It's getting worse.
And worse.
People hate me because of what I did to you.
I just want to change it all.
But, I can't
I can't change a goddamned thing.
All because I was a fucking asshole.
A dumb, retarded fucking asshole.
I don't care anymore.
You make me feel like I want to kill myself.
Professional help isn't what I need.
I don't hate myself for any other reason anymore.
Not my family.
Not my friends.
You.
You're my problem.
No one else.
I sat here.
Hoping.
Holding faith.
Crying myself to sleep everynight because of you.
Because I hate myself.
Because I love you so much.
I love you so much, it makes me hate you.
My shaking never stops.
My life never ends.
I didn't even want you to come back right now.
I just wanted to know if it was possible ever again.
I just wanted to hear you say.."Maybe, someday."
But, I can't fucking deal with it anymore.
I never should have gotten involved with you.
It's like the only thing that will save me anymore is if I kill myself.
I hate everything about myself because of YOU.
I don't blame you for my problems.
I blame myself.....because if I wouldn't have been in love with you I wouldn't have any problems.
I stuck around for you.
I stayed in this piece of shit town for you.
Not for my friends.
Not for my family.
For you.
And, I can't leave now.
SO I SIT AND ROT....BECAUSE OF YOU.
JUST FUCKING TELL ME YOU HATE ME.
SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT ME.
SO YOU CAN THINK OF OTHERS ALL YOU WANT.
SO THAT I CAN HATE YOU IN PEACE.
I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.
I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU FUCKED ME UP.
BEYOND RECOGNITION.
I CAN'T LOOK IN THE MIRROR.
I CAN'T LOOK ANYONE IN THE EYES.
I'M WALKING AROUND EVERYDAY....HOPING SOMEONE HITS ME.
HOPING MY LIFE ENDS SOON SO THAT YOU CAN LIVE YOURS WITHOUT ME BEING AROUND TO RUIN IT FOR YOU.
SO THAT I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT LOVING SOMEONE WHO HATES ME.
FUCK YOU.