when you look at them and you see that they're beautiful..thats how i feel about you..
maybe i'm just handling this is wrong way. i have a hard time verbalizing but i'll take a shot at it.
ok, so i have a problem with someone calling me 'babe' or 'baby' if they're not interested in me, but they act like they are but i'm not entirely sure if im interested in them of if i just like the attention...but heres the thing...i get attention everywhere but i'm not interested in those guys. ok...i think richard likes me but i'm not sure if i like him and EVERYONE who's anyone who knows me, knows beyond a reasonable doubt that i do not make moves. i have been scarred for life, thank you omar. i know it wasnt entirely his fault, but he was the first guy that i was seriously really really into who ripped my heart out, ate it, shit it out and left it on my door step on fire. the last time i made a move was when i asked lloyd to a movie. i know it might not sound like much, but for me it was a move. but i can't tell if he's just flirting with me or if he likes me. but i'm not sure if i like richard. like, i find him mildly attractive but he's a boy. he looks like a boy. i like the mens. i like tall burly mustache and beard men. soooo hot. manly. men. manly manly men. so he calls me babe and baby girl and i'm like ugh! then he called me at work, like on the office phone, which was really weird because people call me on my cellphone, not at work. and he calls me....like random calls. and he wants me to call him back...and i'm like...eh....ssssuure...but i never do because it would be weird. we would have nothing to talk about and i don't like to sit on the phone to hear people breathe...well, not anymore. i just wish i knew so that i could act accordingly. i mean, i'm not really in the stage of my life where i want or think that i need a boyfriend, i just wish i knew so i could act accordingly. i like to flirt and touch. i don't need a relationship...once you label something, it just makes me messy.
I like nik. i wish we could like hang out outside of work or something. i wonder what he does when he's not at work...probably learning languages. i like hangin out with nik. he's a cool kid. i think he's be a really creepy looking man when he gets older...only because he's a little short. but he's adorable and those beautiful blue eyes. omg. i just want to rape them.
i made my housewarming party. its just people from work...which is strange. like i want them to be like david's parties. really chill, occasionally loud but mostly just really chill and lax. my birthday party however will have everyone ....i don't think i'd have enough room for all the people i know that i want. i want it to be absolutely crazy! but i'm not sure how thats gonna work out. lol
ok, so i have a problem with someone calling me 'babe' or 'baby' if they're not interested in me, but they act like they are but i'm not entirely sure if im interested in them of if i just like the attention...but heres the thing...i get attention everywhere but i'm not interested in those guys. ok...i think richard likes me but i'm not sure if i like him and EVERYONE who's anyone who knows me, knows beyond a reasonable doubt that i do not make moves. i have been scarred for life, thank you omar. i know it wasnt entirely his fault, but he was the first guy that i was seriously really really into who ripped my heart out, ate it, shit it out and left it on my door step on fire. the last time i made a move was when i asked lloyd to a movie. i know it might not sound like much, but for me it was a move. but i can't tell if he's just flirting with me or if he likes me. but i'm not sure if i like richard. like, i find him mildly attractive but he's a boy. he looks like a boy. i like the mens. i like tall burly mustache and beard men. soooo hot. manly. men. manly manly men. so he calls me babe and baby girl and i'm like ugh! then he called me at work, like on the office phone, which was really weird because people call me on my cellphone, not at work. and he calls me....like random calls. and he wants me to call him back...and i'm like...eh....ssssuure...but i never do because it would be weird. we would have nothing to talk about and i don't like to sit on the phone to hear people breathe...well, not anymore. i just wish i knew so that i could act accordingly. i mean, i'm not really in the stage of my life where i want or think that i need a boyfriend, i just wish i knew so i could act accordingly. i like to flirt and touch. i don't need a relationship...once you label something, it just makes me messy.
I like nik. i wish we could like hang out outside of work or something. i wonder what he does when he's not at work...probably learning languages. i like hangin out with nik. he's a cool kid. i think he's be a really creepy looking man when he gets older...only because he's a little short. but he's adorable and those beautiful blue eyes. omg. i just want to rape them.
i made my housewarming party. its just people from work...which is strange. like i want them to be like david's parties. really chill, occasionally loud but mostly just really chill and lax. my birthday party however will have everyone ....i don't think i'd have enough room for all the people i know that i want. i want it to be absolutely crazy! but i'm not sure how thats gonna work out. lol