Self Portrait....
I've decided to move back to Tennessee for several reasons - the first most to live again with my wife so we can continue our marriage journey. Secondly, I have a solid job prospect it seems there. And last but not least I think the kid is about at the point to where he could possibly fly by himself. While it breaks my heart to think of the conversation of telling the kid I'm moving I'm trying to imagine that he is a resilient kid and will understand.
I'm not ruling out that I will not ever live in New England again - but if that were to happen hopefully it would be a little better planned out than this go around. But the current economic climate means I would have to move anyways to find a job and programmer jobs in the region are getting more and more uncommon.
While the timing of these decisions does coincide with the middle of Winter - so far I've actually enjoyed the Winter for the most part. Today was truly beautiful as it got into the 40s and was sunny, bright, and spectacular. I spent many hours outside - shoveled snow at the landlords cabin for some extra cash - etc. I have gotten pretty lonely at times. And I've gotten sick of ice damns forming on the roof causing leaks. But I have gotten to experience New England now in every season except Spring.
The timing is uncertain but it's clear to me that I need to start working my ass of putting in my contracting hours to raise enough cash for a move.....plus to deal with all the logistics and stuff. I'm tossing around the idea of either renting/buying a small trailer that the Subaru could tow and leave the bus up here for a bit........or renting a truck/tow dolly and towing the bus down and thus being able to bring larger items (this nice bed I've got).
A certain strength can be found when a relationship gets close to ending but the people come together and reconcile. I'm hoping this can happen and we can build and learn from our mistakes.