Fears
So we're trying to get pregnant, but I'm in two minds. One is that I would love to have a baby, because I know our relationship, mashallah, is wonderful and fulfilling, and a baby would just make things better. However, I'm scared. Scared of pregnancy, scared of childbirth (thanks, Discovery Health!), and scared of being responsible for another human. I'm also scared about how another little person will affect our free time. I know that sounds selfish, but I like our life now. I love our little apartment, (which we would have to move out of if we had a baby-no room at all) and I like the freedom of being able to lounge all day, go to the movies at night, or even just not get up if I don't want to.
I know I'm jumping the gun, but I can't help it. I tend to think ahead. Oh well, Allah Malik hai.
I know I'm jumping the gun, but I can't help it. I tend to think ahead. Oh well, Allah Malik hai.