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its been so surreal lately... so very much so... when you lose someone as a friend who is been there for so long... and such a big part of me... even more than they or i know. i feel... not whole yet a whole new person... or atleast trying to be. i saw him last nite for the first time... we didnt speak except when everyone was talkin bout family guy and i told him i wanted my family guy dvds back... and i started thinking... my random clothes my toothbrush my big lebowski dvd and my moms shinedown cd and any other random shit of mine over there... goddamnit.i know this is the way it should be and this is how i know that it has to be and it still hurts like a mother fucker. ive lost part of my world. so many things happen through the day that jsut make me want to call him and tell him bout them. and the fuckin thing is that so much reminds me of him... i dont even watch tv anymore... cuz ive watched like every show with him. its so hard... what i wouldnt give to just be able to kick back with him on his couch and watch TRUCKS with that guy named stacy(its some stupid truck building show) i saw him last nite and it just hurt... he said good bye to everyone other than me. i just went along like things were normal without directing any conversation towards him. but he didnt look at me, didnt.... i dunno.... i hate this. i hope he grows up some day. i really do.
Have you ever?
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
( ) given someone of the opposite sex a made up phone number
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
(x) felt isolated
(x) laughed and had milk/coke/juice/water come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) gotten a tatoo
(x) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) written a song
( ) broken a bone
(x) been high
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
(x) flashed someone
(x) seen a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
( ) gotten a speeding ticket?
(x) crashed into a friend's car
(x) fallen down a flight of stairs
( ) been to Japan
(x)ridden in a taxi
(x)been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) had fun with someone of the opposite sex in the shower.
( ) eaten a gallon if ice cream by yourself
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) stole something from your job (:))
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) had something stolen from you
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) walked into the wrong class & sat thru the whole thing
(x) slept with a co-worker
(x) written a love letter
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
(x) gotten an autograph from someone famous
( ) had children
(x) written a bad check
( ) seen someone die
(x) did something cruel and unusual to a sibiling
(x) burped at a nice restrauant
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) killed someone
(x) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) tried to fail a class
(x) Been on a plane
(x) gotten motion sickness
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
(x) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire.
(x) been rejected
(x) been to a funeral
( ) proposed to someone
(x) Eaten Sushi.
(x) suspended from school
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a motocross race
(x) killed a pet
(x) started a rumor
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) done hard drugs
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) loved someone and sincerely missed him/her
(x ) loved someone so much it hurt