Sep 05, 2007 07:02
I have a doctor's appt. this afternoon, and for the first time in a long time, I'm not worried about it. I know I haven't lost weight. (I'm hoping that since I've been to the gym regularly since my last appointment, maybe I added 1/4 lb or so in muscle. No aerobic. Well, very, very little aerobic, but lots of resistance training. I have little biceps again. Hehehe) The Lyme treatment seems to be working. I can wake up in the mornings. So I get up and take my meds and read and just have some 'me' time. Then, I make breakfast. A real breakfast. Solid food. Egg, whole grain toast, drizzle of flax oil. Mmm. Yum. And it stays down. And doesn't make me horribly sick. My tummy is behaving better. I have the energy to do work and school and even get to the gym. Best of all, my brain isn't fuzzy. Latin is easy again, and I'm reading several books at once and keeping them all straight. And I'm being overly ambitious in everything and pushy when I want something worked out. Perhaps I should work on keeping that part of my personality muted. I was talking to my mommy last week, and she paused in the middle of the conversation and said that I sounded like myself for the first time in a couple years. And it's so true. I'm actually feeling like myself again. Like I can take on and destroy anything. I'm trying not to get too excited and to remind myself that there will still be bad days. I'm not completely normal yet. I tried to skip some of my meds this weekend which didn't work so well, and my attempts at eating more solid food are largely unsucessful. But I am better. A lot better. It's going to happen. I'm going to be healthy again.
**********SQUEAL!!!!!!!**********
getting better,
school,
doctor's appointment,
eating