Mother's ruin everything
Okay so I know we are unemployed and our budget is tight. I know I'm supposed to be depressed about this. And I have been. But all of sudden I started coming out of it. It started with me wanting to cook. When I wanted to cook I don';t mean just mac n cheese. I started wanting to cook a full dinner. I started wanting to make healthier foods. That was when I decided to cook for Mark and Jessie and their kids one night and then Rob, carol, and robbie the next night(that ended up not happening but I still wanted to do it) and I just kept wanting to cook. Sure the meals have been simple things like seasoned steak, seasoned chicken, mashed potatoes, steamed broccoli and asparagus. It's not much but it's a start. Then yesterday I really knew it was the beginning of a huge change when I made the decision to stay home alone with the kids while Tom went to his dad's. I was planning on going to my mom's but it would have required staying the night and it was more trouble than it's worth... but normally I still would have done it or at least tried to. I just decided it wasn't worth it and I could handle staying home alone no problem. That was a big deal for me... of course om didn't understand how it was such a big deal because sexually things haven't improved drastically yet. I don't know what changed but I'm pretty sure my hormones are regulating finally.
Well I decided that because I'm coming out of the depression stage what could be better than finally getting a family vacation. So I'm still working out whether or not we can do it but we are planning on going to florida(driving) from May 10th, 2009 to May 16th or 17th, 2009. I talked to my aunt and she's thrilled... I hope we can do it but of course when i got the number from my mom and told her why she got upset. "Who's dime are you doing that on?!" She just can't let me be an adult and make my own decisions. She can never just be happy with me for me. No she instead has to make me feel guilty about it and ruin the good feeling I have about it. I suppose she's jealous or thinking I'm not responsible but kiss my butt it's my life and just because I'm on assistance doesn't mean I have to be depressed and never spend any money. And she certainly can't talk about spending money when she is always worried about my dad losing his job and then she keeps buying stuff she doesn't need.
Well I decided that because I'm coming out of the depression stage what could be better than finally getting a family vacation. So I'm still working out whether or not we can do it but we are planning on going to florida(driving) from May 10th, 2009 to May 16th or 17th, 2009. I talked to my aunt and she's thrilled... I hope we can do it but of course when i got the number from my mom and told her why she got upset. "Who's dime are you doing that on?!" She just can't let me be an adult and make my own decisions. She can never just be happy with me for me. No she instead has to make me feel guilty about it and ruin the good feeling I have about it. I suppose she's jealous or thinking I'm not responsible but kiss my butt it's my life and just because I'm on assistance doesn't mean I have to be depressed and never spend any money. And she certainly can't talk about spending money when she is always worried about my dad losing his job and then she keeps buying stuff she doesn't need.