therapy needed... for husband too!!
I went to my psychologist appointment earlier today obviously and she wants me to get Tom to come in with me. She believes my depression is from the fact that I am losing myself... I am a wife and a mother and just going through the motions with no place in there for megan... I really felt that way and thought that but I felt stupid thinking it and guilty too because it means I need to get more time to myself which is hard. So I am going to start looking for a baby sitter that I can start out slow with. Like have the person watch the kids to give me a break but have me still be home just not having to take care of the kids. Then maybe after a while I can start to trust them with my kids alone after a while. That and I need a license. Obvious on the license part I know but the more confirmation I get of that needing to happen the more motivated I get to make it happen.
Tom agreed to go but even said he didn't see why we needed to go to marriage counseling seeing as that is what it will be. We are almost up to 3 years married and it seems like we shouldn't be having problems already but we have 2 kids and we are young and are just now getting control of our finances. Maybe he will understand things better after a couple sessions. Now I need someone to watch the kids in order for us to do these sessions together. So regardless I am going to another session next saturday at 2pm. But it may be a bit before we can do sessions together because of needing someone to watch the kids.
He talked to his doctor about his stomach problems today and she gave him nexium. Nope not for heartburn but that's what I thought at first. Just reduces the acid in your stomach so it can help with general stomach problems. In 2 weeks if he is better she is going to prescribe the chantix stop smoking pill to him. I guess a side effect can be stomach problems so she wants to clear that up first before prescribing the chantix to him.
I got my bluetooth headset today. I might be upgrading my phone to something close to a sidekick in the next week too. If so I'll be changing my number because it requires a new activation for the deal so heads up I might be handing out my new number soon.
We might be getting a cat soon. I was shocked when Tom mentioned wanting one. We both loved having a dog and really miss having a pet in general... (I miss my hamster djaquory almost like a child) and because of our credit there's of course always a worry of not being able to move to a dog friendly place or any place at the end of may. So I started looking into adopting a cat from a shelter. I have 2 favorites and have applied for one. The other doesn't have a way to apply online and I want to go see her in ann arbor like now!! she sounds so perfect.
http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=11974172
I applied for this one already
http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=12840419
This is the beautiful cat I want in ann arbor... Is that not the most awesome coloring ever!?
My sister has a kitten though. She is possibly in a situation where she might need to find a home for him so I told her to keep me up to date and I'll try to wait until she knows for sure. If I could have her kitten instead of her finding a random home for him in a rush... well... at the very least I could foster him for her until she found a home.. if we didn't fall in love with him in the process.
Well I'm pretty happy right now because I almost cried in therapy and feel like she really gets me... has some different views about things in general but I like that. It makes her human rather than just like every other doctor out there. She even asked me if I wanted a hug before leaving and though I felt a little odd I nodded and she hugged me... I had to bend down to her a bit cuz she's shorter than me which is funny to me at this very moment because it didn't occur to me until just now. I was nervous and got all sweaty sitting there talking about such personal things. But I didn't hesitate. I told her a lot. And I like that she didn't jump to blaming my parents or upbringing. She said I need two afternoons off a week scheduled so I have that to look forward to. Tom complained that that idea was unfair seeing as he doesn't even get that. I glared at him for that and he said "well I don't" "I have 2 jobs. I help around here when I get home and on weekends." Of course he does help but most of the time he sleeps in on weekends and he gets to go out to help rob with things... that has been cut down on a lot because of my complaints and Rob generally not appreciating his help. But we had a system where he would get up sunday mornings and I got up saturdays and that has disappeared. I talked to him about it and he even said I actually have to remind him the night before to go to bed earlier so he can get up with the kids... hmm I wonder why I feel like I have three children... anyone guess?
So my next big question is... does anyone know a teenage girl looking to babysit cheap? I'm going to post on cafe mom about reliable babysitters in the area and stuff but I'm not sure where else to look.... any suggestions?
Tom agreed to go but even said he didn't see why we needed to go to marriage counseling seeing as that is what it will be. We are almost up to 3 years married and it seems like we shouldn't be having problems already but we have 2 kids and we are young and are just now getting control of our finances. Maybe he will understand things better after a couple sessions. Now I need someone to watch the kids in order for us to do these sessions together. So regardless I am going to another session next saturday at 2pm. But it may be a bit before we can do sessions together because of needing someone to watch the kids.
He talked to his doctor about his stomach problems today and she gave him nexium. Nope not for heartburn but that's what I thought at first. Just reduces the acid in your stomach so it can help with general stomach problems. In 2 weeks if he is better she is going to prescribe the chantix stop smoking pill to him. I guess a side effect can be stomach problems so she wants to clear that up first before prescribing the chantix to him.
I got my bluetooth headset today. I might be upgrading my phone to something close to a sidekick in the next week too. If so I'll be changing my number because it requires a new activation for the deal so heads up I might be handing out my new number soon.
We might be getting a cat soon. I was shocked when Tom mentioned wanting one. We both loved having a dog and really miss having a pet in general... (I miss my hamster djaquory almost like a child) and because of our credit there's of course always a worry of not being able to move to a dog friendly place or any place at the end of may. So I started looking into adopting a cat from a shelter. I have 2 favorites and have applied for one. The other doesn't have a way to apply online and I want to go see her in ann arbor like now!! she sounds so perfect.
http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=11974172
I applied for this one already
http://www.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=12840419
This is the beautiful cat I want in ann arbor... Is that not the most awesome coloring ever!?
My sister has a kitten though. She is possibly in a situation where she might need to find a home for him so I told her to keep me up to date and I'll try to wait until she knows for sure. If I could have her kitten instead of her finding a random home for him in a rush... well... at the very least I could foster him for her until she found a home.. if we didn't fall in love with him in the process.
Well I'm pretty happy right now because I almost cried in therapy and feel like she really gets me... has some different views about things in general but I like that. It makes her human rather than just like every other doctor out there. She even asked me if I wanted a hug before leaving and though I felt a little odd I nodded and she hugged me... I had to bend down to her a bit cuz she's shorter than me which is funny to me at this very moment because it didn't occur to me until just now. I was nervous and got all sweaty sitting there talking about such personal things. But I didn't hesitate. I told her a lot. And I like that she didn't jump to blaming my parents or upbringing. She said I need two afternoons off a week scheduled so I have that to look forward to. Tom complained that that idea was unfair seeing as he doesn't even get that. I glared at him for that and he said "well I don't" "I have 2 jobs. I help around here when I get home and on weekends." Of course he does help but most of the time he sleeps in on weekends and he gets to go out to help rob with things... that has been cut down on a lot because of my complaints and Rob generally not appreciating his help. But we had a system where he would get up sunday mornings and I got up saturdays and that has disappeared. I talked to him about it and he even said I actually have to remind him the night before to go to bed earlier so he can get up with the kids... hmm I wonder why I feel like I have three children... anyone guess?
So my next big question is... does anyone know a teenage girl looking to babysit cheap? I'm going to post on cafe mom about reliable babysitters in the area and stuff but I'm not sure where else to look.... any suggestions?