Jumped into the river, what did i see? Black eyed angels swam with me
I had a nightmare I was drowning again. I don't get those too often. Still, they bother me enough for me to prefer someone trying to kill me, or incounters with my inner demons exposing themselves in different forms. At least those are interesting..
The dream left me exhausted as if I had actually struggled. You don't think when you're drowning. The complex mind is finally silenced, and it simply becomes your brain. Nothing but an organ. Like all living things, instinct for survival overcomes you. Funny how well the dream seemed to shut off thoughts and strictly depict this sensation.
I've drowned 3 times in real life. My luck I guess? No one saved me the 1st time. The pool was full of other children and adults. I remember some people just staring at me dumbfounded as I went under. Eh, I was just a little kid accidentally in the deep end. Silly kid..
My friend Nora almost drowned with me the 2nd time. Her dad owned a hotel, so we would go alone to the pools a lot. We were both pushing each other under to breathe. Once again, instinct. Fortunetly, somehow I managed to push her away and she got to the shallower end; I recovered as well. We literarely almost killed each other. Later she said she'd rather have died there with me then live without her best friend. Foolish kids..
The 3rd time was so much different. Rather than fear it, I longed for it? And I couldn't help but adore the blissful waves beneath me. I told them I fell in.
Not that my body decaying at the bottom of the ocean was any more appealing than rotting in a box under ground, but I guess not thinking seemed more pleasent than being aware of whatever would have to be done to get me in a coffin.
People can be such idiots, it's almost amusing. Hm, I was supposed to visit Cleo in France this summer. And afterwards visit Cyprus...I don't think I should ever go back there. Water surounds it.
The dream left me exhausted as if I had actually struggled. You don't think when you're drowning. The complex mind is finally silenced, and it simply becomes your brain. Nothing but an organ. Like all living things, instinct for survival overcomes you. Funny how well the dream seemed to shut off thoughts and strictly depict this sensation.
I've drowned 3 times in real life. My luck I guess? No one saved me the 1st time. The pool was full of other children and adults. I remember some people just staring at me dumbfounded as I went under. Eh, I was just a little kid accidentally in the deep end. Silly kid..
My friend Nora almost drowned with me the 2nd time. Her dad owned a hotel, so we would go alone to the pools a lot. We were both pushing each other under to breathe. Once again, instinct. Fortunetly, somehow I managed to push her away and she got to the shallower end; I recovered as well. We literarely almost killed each other. Later she said she'd rather have died there with me then live without her best friend. Foolish kids..
The 3rd time was so much different. Rather than fear it, I longed for it? And I couldn't help but adore the blissful waves beneath me. I told them I fell in.
Not that my body decaying at the bottom of the ocean was any more appealing than rotting in a box under ground, but I guess not thinking seemed more pleasent than being aware of whatever would have to be done to get me in a coffin.
People can be such idiots, it's almost amusing. Hm, I was supposed to visit Cleo in France this summer. And afterwards visit Cyprus...I don't think I should ever go back there. Water surounds it.