Make Me Prouder
I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I am not doing this. I AM NOT DOING THIS!!! Oh wait - it looks like I am.
I just cleaned my room, which I haven't cared enough to do for awhile. Like the kind of cleaning I did that one night in December for which Lee and Cyndi were present to question my sanity more than they normally do. Just lacking the Swifter/broom... so I only cleaned half the floor with these all-surface wipes that I have. Why? Good question; next question.
No, really, I did it because of university. I love political science and the idea of being a lawyer... but it's memorizing facts, remembering laws, persuading people, possibly lying through my teeth, standing up for causes that I may or may not support, being ridiculed regularly because the majority of people hate lawyers and/or politicians... one of my professors said it perfectly about people with a political science degree: "They're like leaves, everywhere. It's one of the easiest degrees to get and there is never a lack of political science majors, teachers, professors, etc. etc. Not the best degree to get." But I've wanted to get one for quite awhile! I'll admit that part of the appeal was the pre-law part, going to law school, becoming a lawyer, and finally proving to my family that I am plenty good enough. But the more political courses I take, the more attention I pay to every detail of it, the more I realize that it'd be like how I imagine myself when it comes to teaching. It's not that I wouldn't be good at it - it's that I'd lose my mind and my job for exploding at the stupid people. I could be a good politician, a very good one, but I don't want to anymore. I don't want a political science degree. I don't want to go through college with that to show for it anymore.
What do I want to do? I'm not 100% sure anymore, and that makes me really uncomfortable. I don't like not knowing what I want to do. Well, I know what I'd like to do, what I'm trying to figure out is if I could do it without cracking or staying at uni for the rest of my natural born life. Only problem is that I really do love politics, that was always true, I just don't want it anymore. And I've seen too many people have careers that they hate to be one of them. I'm going to university for me and me alone, and I'm going to get a degree in something that will make me happy when I have it. And twenty years from now I want to be doing something that will both make me happy and proud of myself for doing something good.
I've always love the environment... and writing; but I've gone over this a million times and there is no way in hell I'm getting a writing degree because that's mostly good for teaching or writing for newspapers and the like and that is not my idea of fun.
I'm going through my quarterly Alanis Morissette love, I've got all her CDs on my laptop and they're on repeat.
I just cleaned my room, which I haven't cared enough to do for awhile. Like the kind of cleaning I did that one night in December for which Lee and Cyndi were present to question my sanity more than they normally do. Just lacking the Swifter/broom... so I only cleaned half the floor with these all-surface wipes that I have. Why? Good question; next question.
No, really, I did it because of university. I love political science and the idea of being a lawyer... but it's memorizing facts, remembering laws, persuading people, possibly lying through my teeth, standing up for causes that I may or may not support, being ridiculed regularly because the majority of people hate lawyers and/or politicians... one of my professors said it perfectly about people with a political science degree: "They're like leaves, everywhere. It's one of the easiest degrees to get and there is never a lack of political science majors, teachers, professors, etc. etc. Not the best degree to get." But I've wanted to get one for quite awhile! I'll admit that part of the appeal was the pre-law part, going to law school, becoming a lawyer, and finally proving to my family that I am plenty good enough. But the more political courses I take, the more attention I pay to every detail of it, the more I realize that it'd be like how I imagine myself when it comes to teaching. It's not that I wouldn't be good at it - it's that I'd lose my mind and my job for exploding at the stupid people. I could be a good politician, a very good one, but I don't want to anymore. I don't want a political science degree. I don't want to go through college with that to show for it anymore.
What do I want to do? I'm not 100% sure anymore, and that makes me really uncomfortable. I don't like not knowing what I want to do. Well, I know what I'd like to do, what I'm trying to figure out is if I could do it without cracking or staying at uni for the rest of my natural born life. Only problem is that I really do love politics, that was always true, I just don't want it anymore. And I've seen too many people have careers that they hate to be one of them. I'm going to university for me and me alone, and I'm going to get a degree in something that will make me happy when I have it. And twenty years from now I want to be doing something that will both make me happy and proud of myself for doing something good.
I've always love the environment... and writing; but I've gone over this a million times and there is no way in hell I'm getting a writing degree because that's mostly good for teaching or writing for newspapers and the like and that is not my idea of fun.
I'm going through my quarterly Alanis Morissette love, I've got all her CDs on my laptop and they're on repeat.