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ok, well i had a very-VERY long weekend,....alll i really did was drive around adrian's car, and he and i just hung out with max, ..... and that is all we did, i mean we tried to get drunk one night, but it just didn't work, max and i had some things that we needed to talk about, so we talked and decided just to be friends, which i figure is for the best, leslie, myrah and janet also went over....man i drove around a lot, and then on sunday max had to go home, so we took him, and then we went and got him later that night because he had today off from school due to the fact that it was a holiday, so we hung out again last night, same people except that myrah brought some guy that she is crushing on named "LEO" who in fact is a pisces, and we took the girls home and then adrian and i took leo home, max stayed at adrians and slept, but while we were taking leo, adrian and i were trying to play cupid but only succeded in making him uncomfortable but whatever...it was fun, .......
i don't know, i had lots of fun, now this week i HAVE to get a job, i hate being such a procrastinator....i am seriously going to go everywhere and call everywhere i can think of, i need a job, and now it really sucks because i think that i am having second doubts about weither or not i want to move out to bastrop with perk and brad, because i want to stay in the city, that is why i hated living in peterboro,....i don't know i have to talk to her, and i mean it would just be easier for me to stay here in the city anyways.....i mean as far as a job, and transprotation there would be no contest, and i mean i can have my own place here in town, which i guess would be a good thing, and i don't know, it just seems like the more logical thing to do, and then when i realy get settled i can start taking classes at ACC to catch up to everyone, and get started on some kind of degree,....... i don't really know that far ahead, all i do know is that i need to find a job this week, that is my priority and my goal, so by friday or sat i should have a few good leads on a job....we will see what happens, i really need to do this,.......
and i want a car and a license so that i can drive around and see all my friends easier like, max and mikey, and maybe even stalk a few people here and there.....uh oh scary, watch out when i get a car, i will be all over the place....:D
I dont' know, i mean i have all kinds of things on my plate, now it is just a matter of putting it all in perspective and in the correct and most sence making order........(there is a word there to use i just cant think of it right now) but i mean, i am good at it,. i think that i will stay with my parents this week to give me that extra push in to it, i mean i know that i have to learn how to do things on my own but that is what parent's are for ya' know, to make sure that everything is good ..... i don't know, they give me a sence of balance i don't really get anywhere else.....I love them..
You know what else i love !!! Raul's radio on Yahoo messanger's Launch,. he has his own radio thing programmed and i have been listeaning to it for a while and it is pretty damn good,.....i will have to send him props for that.......
ok, so i know that i am really bad about things like this, but there is this guy that i met off the internet, and the way i met him is really funny because i went into a chat room on yahoo and started talking shit to him, and he to me. and so i finaly got tired of it and left the room, so i thought, well it turned out that i actually didn't get out, so he messaged me and was yelling at me kinda and i was like "i guess dude" and we just started talking and became friends, well now all of the sudden i am finding myself attracted to him, i mean he is really cute/hot and he is my age, about to be 20 on Valentine's Day, and what not, but he lives in south texas somewhere, i mean it is kinda bad that i have a kinda thing for mikey and he lives in san antonio, but this guy lives a little further then that.....i don't know....i mean we are supposed to make plans to meet up and hang out, so maybe we can see what is up then.....but this how it was with mikey, max, and the canadian.....kinda, so i mean....what the hell, i don't know what to do.......i like him, i am going to leave it like that and not turn it into something big where we both or just even one of us gets hurt because that just isn't cool.....
but alright kido's i think that i am going to bed, or atleast go lay on brad's bed and watch lilo and stitch or something, god i hope that i get a ride into town tomorrow somehow, maybe leslie will come and get me and we will get breakfest or something i dont know......but i must go
~this is what its like to be JaDeD~
santos