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What an eventful day. I missed the bus this morning because I was too busy getting ready. I actually wanted to look pretty for school today. I wore my new pinstripe pants and stuff. There was a lot of homework assigned today, but I did it all. Mr. Marcetti is an asshole, but that's another story.
So I got home and got yelled at by my parents because I want a social life. Well, that's nothing new. So I went with my mom to SC4 and met this guy there. Yeah, I forgot to tell you.. I met this guy over the Internet that lives like 20 mins away. He lives really close and goes to the mall all the time where I work. So it's actually someone in my area. Anyways, he is 20 and had a class at SC4 today, so it just worked out perfectly that we could meet. When I first saw him my eyeballs like almost popped out, he is REALLY fucking hot in person. Like male-model kinda hot. I was kinda shocked and didn't know how to react because I never get guys like that. So we went to the mall and hung out, and I got my cartiledge pierced. The top of my ear is all red and hurts really bad. It hurt more than my fucking belly button piercing! The chick who pierced it said that I had thick cartiledge. I could tell, because she had a hard time getting all the way through it. Man it seriously hurt. But Marshall was laughing at me (that's his name) and it was pretty funny. So then he bought me Taco Bell and we talked and listened to music in his truck for a while. We have IDENTICAL music tastes, we were singing along with everything and he couldn't believe that I knew the lyrics to all that hardcore shit. So I guess I am a really cool girl, because I'm a metalhead. Heheh. So, we hit it off I think. He was really cool, but to be honest, his hotness was a big distraction. I don't think that's a bad thing though. Anyways, I kinda felt out of it.. sitting in his vehicle listening to all that metal reminded me of Craig because we always do that. But it wasn't Craig this time. I dunno how to explain it, I had mixed feelings.. I felt sorta melancholy so I let him do most of the talking..
I still miss Craig terribly, he is like the last thing I think about at night and the first thing I think about in the morning. And throughout the day I'll encounter random things that remind me of him. Basically he's in my thoughts a lot and I don't know if that's obsessive or sweet. But I DO know that it's probably pointless. :\
I dunno if I want to see him over Winter Break or anything, if I see him I will probably cling to him and cry and then not let him go home. And that kind of behavior's probably not a good thing for either one of us. So I just dunno. I still want to hang out and be his friend but it seems impossible now that I am in love with him, and continuing to see him definitely won't make that go away. It's so fucked. I honestly have no idea what to do.
On a less dramatic note: I bought a new pair of jeans that fit me perfectly and make my legs look fine. Yay.
So I am going to disinfect my aching ear and then catch some sleep.. I don't think I can pull another late night on the Internet.
So I got home and got yelled at by my parents because I want a social life. Well, that's nothing new. So I went with my mom to SC4 and met this guy there. Yeah, I forgot to tell you.. I met this guy over the Internet that lives like 20 mins away. He lives really close and goes to the mall all the time where I work. So it's actually someone in my area. Anyways, he is 20 and had a class at SC4 today, so it just worked out perfectly that we could meet. When I first saw him my eyeballs like almost popped out, he is REALLY fucking hot in person. Like male-model kinda hot. I was kinda shocked and didn't know how to react because I never get guys like that. So we went to the mall and hung out, and I got my cartiledge pierced. The top of my ear is all red and hurts really bad. It hurt more than my fucking belly button piercing! The chick who pierced it said that I had thick cartiledge. I could tell, because she had a hard time getting all the way through it. Man it seriously hurt. But Marshall was laughing at me (that's his name) and it was pretty funny. So then he bought me Taco Bell and we talked and listened to music in his truck for a while. We have IDENTICAL music tastes, we were singing along with everything and he couldn't believe that I knew the lyrics to all that hardcore shit. So I guess I am a really cool girl, because I'm a metalhead. Heheh. So, we hit it off I think. He was really cool, but to be honest, his hotness was a big distraction. I don't think that's a bad thing though. Anyways, I kinda felt out of it.. sitting in his vehicle listening to all that metal reminded me of Craig because we always do that. But it wasn't Craig this time. I dunno how to explain it, I had mixed feelings.. I felt sorta melancholy so I let him do most of the talking..
I still miss Craig terribly, he is like the last thing I think about at night and the first thing I think about in the morning. And throughout the day I'll encounter random things that remind me of him. Basically he's in my thoughts a lot and I don't know if that's obsessive or sweet. But I DO know that it's probably pointless. :\
I dunno if I want to see him over Winter Break or anything, if I see him I will probably cling to him and cry and then not let him go home. And that kind of behavior's probably not a good thing for either one of us. So I just dunno. I still want to hang out and be his friend but it seems impossible now that I am in love with him, and continuing to see him definitely won't make that go away. It's so fucked. I honestly have no idea what to do.
On a less dramatic note: I bought a new pair of jeans that fit me perfectly and make my legs look fine. Yay.
So I am going to disinfect my aching ear and then catch some sleep.. I don't think I can pull another late night on the Internet.