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Gosh. I wish I had more time. I'll go a week without chattiing to a single person online, or even getting online for that matter. I can't even believe it. All (most) of the people on my friends list are from Furcadia and I haven't played that game in months. I feel so disconnected from this little world. Oh well.. maybe it's time that I let it all go. Don't get me wrong, you guys will always be the best long-distance friends I've ever had.
Anyhow! Homecoming was alright. If you want a totally honest opinion, it wasn't anything to rave about, but it wasn't crappy either. I think it would have been funner if Racheal would have been there. Not a lot of my friends went. Christoph and I hung out the entire night, which was... ehhh. His shyness is really bothering me. They played all this good music, like Lil Jon and all kinds of ghetto shit with a good beat, and I was shaking all my shit. And he was just kinda standing there. Not a good dance partner. He was alright to slow dance with, but he was kinda holding me at a distance, like he was afraid to touch me or something. So awkward. When he gives me compliments he looks all scared and unsure. Maybe I should have gotten him drunk or something. I like guys who are forward. :|
So, anyway, here are some pictures of us. http://www.geocities.com/desvilred/homecoming
Yesterday was really good but really bad at the same time. It was good because Craig came over and we spent the whole day together. We really didn't do anything, we just went to Arby's and then ate at the beach, then sat around. We got dressed up because we were gonna go someplace nice, but then we just went to Arby's instead. I wore a skirt and it was annoying, but he looked super fucking hot in his dress pants and all that. It was a good day but I wish I could do everything right. I know he isn't disappointed with me or anything, I just feel like a screwup for some odd reason. But I tend to be hard on myself, so it's probably not even a big deal. Plus he is a really patient person, obviously, for putting up with me. I guess that's why I love him so much.
Jeez.. my parents got in the hugest fight. It was right before Christoph showed up, to take me to Homecoming. I was trying to get ready and everything, and my parents were screaming at eachother. Actually, it was my mom screaming at my dad and him laughing at her, because he got her to explode. That's how he does it, he provokes people and then smirks and laughs at them and goes, "Why are you getting so revved up?? I am perfectly calm, can't you have a mature conversation??" He is such a sarcastic vindictive asshole. My mom was cleaning the garage and she moved a few things, so he moved them back just to be a jerk and then came and told her not to touch his property. He told her not to enter his room for any reason, not to put away his laundry or vaccum his floor or anything. My mom uses the guest room. He is such a dickhead, it's incredible.. I can't even fully express it. He kept opening the bathroom door while my mom and I were in there, and saying provoking comments and then closing the door before my mom could say anything back. Then he was walking around the house laughing really loud while my mom screamed at him through the walls, and he was like "Ohhh you're so immature!!". It was funny, the blatant hypocrisy of that. Then he kept making up things, like saying that the reason I hate him is because my mom influenced me. Which is total bullshit.. I hate him because he's a prick to me, not because my mom told me to hate him. And then after things cooled down, he confided in my mom, and told her that I was a manipulative and devious child that's trying to ruin their marriage. What the fuck? He ruined his own marriage by treating her like shit.. it had nothing to do with me at all. He's such a fucking psycho.. he was staring down my mom and refused to look away. He was just staring at her and smiling, and she's like, "What the fuck is your problem?" and he's like, "Hey, don't use that language in front of our daughter!" and started taking digs at her parenting skills. He's soooooo retarded. I mean, seriously, no one has any idea how fucked up he is. I really want to put a camera/recorder in our house.. I bet I could get him locked up so fast. Oh, another thing that I found out this morning. He hid my disinfectant from me, the stuff that I'm using for my new ear piercings. So now I'm afraid they're gonna get infected. I tried to look for the bottle, but he is always lurking around, and he'll probably start a fight with me. "Don't go through my stuff!!" or something like that. Freak.
Anyway.. shewww. Yeah. Lots of problems at home. I've been on the verge of crying several times, just wishing I could escape. Have Craig pick me up or something.. let me stay with him. He is really the only positive thing I have in my life right now, the only stable person that is there for me. Well. I have lots of other friends, but it just isn't the same. I guess because I love him in a much more intense way. I dunno.
ENUF EMOTIONL SIHT. SHIT.KLGD.S
Here's a pic of me, my cat Shiella, and this big stuffed animal cat that I got for my birthday. It's "cats.jpg". http://www.geocities.com/desvilred/tinapics
I have pics from my 18th birthday but I don't feel like resizing and uploading and blah blah. What the fuck happened to Simplehost? It died or something. I hate having to use my old Geocities account.
So that's all for now.. time to go eat.
Anyhow! Homecoming was alright. If you want a totally honest opinion, it wasn't anything to rave about, but it wasn't crappy either. I think it would have been funner if Racheal would have been there. Not a lot of my friends went. Christoph and I hung out the entire night, which was... ehhh. His shyness is really bothering me. They played all this good music, like Lil Jon and all kinds of ghetto shit with a good beat, and I was shaking all my shit. And he was just kinda standing there. Not a good dance partner. He was alright to slow dance with, but he was kinda holding me at a distance, like he was afraid to touch me or something. So awkward. When he gives me compliments he looks all scared and unsure. Maybe I should have gotten him drunk or something. I like guys who are forward. :|
So, anyway, here are some pictures of us. http://www.geocities.com/desvilred/homecoming
Yesterday was really good but really bad at the same time. It was good because Craig came over and we spent the whole day together. We really didn't do anything, we just went to Arby's and then ate at the beach, then sat around. We got dressed up because we were gonna go someplace nice, but then we just went to Arby's instead. I wore a skirt and it was annoying, but he looked super fucking hot in his dress pants and all that. It was a good day but I wish I could do everything right. I know he isn't disappointed with me or anything, I just feel like a screwup for some odd reason. But I tend to be hard on myself, so it's probably not even a big deal. Plus he is a really patient person, obviously, for putting up with me. I guess that's why I love him so much.
Jeez.. my parents got in the hugest fight. It was right before Christoph showed up, to take me to Homecoming. I was trying to get ready and everything, and my parents were screaming at eachother. Actually, it was my mom screaming at my dad and him laughing at her, because he got her to explode. That's how he does it, he provokes people and then smirks and laughs at them and goes, "Why are you getting so revved up?? I am perfectly calm, can't you have a mature conversation??" He is such a sarcastic vindictive asshole. My mom was cleaning the garage and she moved a few things, so he moved them back just to be a jerk and then came and told her not to touch his property. He told her not to enter his room for any reason, not to put away his laundry or vaccum his floor or anything. My mom uses the guest room. He is such a dickhead, it's incredible.. I can't even fully express it. He kept opening the bathroom door while my mom and I were in there, and saying provoking comments and then closing the door before my mom could say anything back. Then he was walking around the house laughing really loud while my mom screamed at him through the walls, and he was like "Ohhh you're so immature!!". It was funny, the blatant hypocrisy of that. Then he kept making up things, like saying that the reason I hate him is because my mom influenced me. Which is total bullshit.. I hate him because he's a prick to me, not because my mom told me to hate him. And then after things cooled down, he confided in my mom, and told her that I was a manipulative and devious child that's trying to ruin their marriage. What the fuck? He ruined his own marriage by treating her like shit.. it had nothing to do with me at all. He's such a fucking psycho.. he was staring down my mom and refused to look away. He was just staring at her and smiling, and she's like, "What the fuck is your problem?" and he's like, "Hey, don't use that language in front of our daughter!" and started taking digs at her parenting skills. He's soooooo retarded. I mean, seriously, no one has any idea how fucked up he is. I really want to put a camera/recorder in our house.. I bet I could get him locked up so fast. Oh, another thing that I found out this morning. He hid my disinfectant from me, the stuff that I'm using for my new ear piercings. So now I'm afraid they're gonna get infected. I tried to look for the bottle, but he is always lurking around, and he'll probably start a fight with me. "Don't go through my stuff!!" or something like that. Freak.
Anyway.. shewww. Yeah. Lots of problems at home. I've been on the verge of crying several times, just wishing I could escape. Have Craig pick me up or something.. let me stay with him. He is really the only positive thing I have in my life right now, the only stable person that is there for me. Well. I have lots of other friends, but it just isn't the same. I guess because I love him in a much more intense way. I dunno.
ENUF EMOTIONL SIHT. SHIT.KLGD.S
Here's a pic of me, my cat Shiella, and this big stuffed animal cat that I got for my birthday. It's "cats.jpg". http://www.geocities.com/desvilred/tinapics
I have pics from my 18th birthday but I don't feel like resizing and uploading and blah blah. What the fuck happened to Simplehost? It died or something. I hate having to use my old Geocities account.
So that's all for now.. time to go eat.