Clap Your Hands
Because I'm happy.
No special reason, just feeling positive and productive. Getting stuff done. My brain seems to be working rather than just taking up space in my head. I've been getting more energetic, day by day, for the past couple of weeks, and then we got a cool front in and I have been walking around with a satisfied feeling and half a smile on my face all day. I'm happy.
I am also terrified, because I know it's not going to last.
Thinking about it, I'm not sure how long it's been since I felt this way. I'm wanting to say it's been at least a year, but I think it's been longer. Two years maybe. Possibly longer.
At least two years since I have felt sustained positivity, joy or contentment.
WTF. How have I even managed to stay alive?
No special reason, just feeling positive and productive. Getting stuff done. My brain seems to be working rather than just taking up space in my head. I've been getting more energetic, day by day, for the past couple of weeks, and then we got a cool front in and I have been walking around with a satisfied feeling and half a smile on my face all day. I'm happy.
I am also terrified, because I know it's not going to last.
Thinking about it, I'm not sure how long it's been since I felt this way. I'm wanting to say it's been at least a year, but I think it's been longer. Two years maybe. Possibly longer.
At least two years since I have felt sustained positivity, joy or contentment.
WTF. How have I even managed to stay alive?