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So its really weird when two people you don't talk to that much notice that something is wrong with you, and the people you spend most of your time with don't. I guess I'm sad, but I can't really pin-point why. School isn't bothering me that much these days, I mean math is just a hopeless subject for me, english is awesome(except for all the work), chem is a challenge, music history should be easier, spanish sux, art can kiss my ass and thats about it. So then whats the problem? I feel like lately I'm envieing people that I know I would truly not be happy being. I also feel like certain things are important to me for the wrong reasons. I just really wish that everyday could be filled with me surrounded by a group of people that truly care about me, and me to them. I don't live in that world and I don't think it is really possible too. So I guess I have come to the conlcusion that being 16 isn't really all its cracked up to be. I am unhappy with the way I look, but who isn't. And I wish I liked being around my family more, but I don't. I can't think of any solution out of my unhappiness right now either, so maybe today is just a bad day and tomarrow will be better, I guess I can only hope and try and realize how blessed I am to be where I am, but I'm really not happy about too much.