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Thsi time of the year is supposed to be happy but things are majorly sucking ass. I went to the mall and bought everyone presetns last night. Well not everyone, but whatever. Anyways I spent like $70 bucks and my mom flipped. I got like a hell of a yelling last night because as it turns it...we're going through a "rough patch" to put it nicely, financially. And it sucks. I feel so awful for spending so much money because I want to be the last person to create so many problems for my parnets. I'm not doing a good job though. I talk too much. Today I pissed the shit out of my dad. And in the end he screamed at me so much and he was like "Divya I curse the day that I brought you to America". It was so horrible. Anyways, I don't want to cause my parents anymore stress. So I'm getting a job as soon as possible and giving them all my paychecks, hopefully they'll take them. I'm no longer going to have a bday party. I guess my 21st will have to be nice and big. And I'm jsut gunna try and cut back on outings and everything I do. Arwa explained to me that every family goes through a time like this, and that I shouldn't worry too much. Shes right, but I also need to be so grateful because my parents have really tried everything in their power to make me as happy as possible and I am happy. Blargh. Its jsut that sometimes life really bites.