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So I've been reading some of my old posts lately.... I seem like a sexually frustrated child. Some of the older entries made me realize how stupid and naive I was. I used to strive to be accepted a lot. Lately I've calmed down a lot though. Some of it can be good and some can be the opposite. I've not been myself lately. I have a friend who I like very much. I have no idea if we're "together" or not, but am too afraid to ask because I'd seem stupid and I overthink things. I also don't want to assume anything. I am afraid though, since I haven't been myself around him, I might ruin things. I can be a wild child in front of my close friends, and be very outgoing and fun, but with him, I get all quiet. I'm afraid of saying something stupid, but I think this quiet thing might be making things worse. I'm ususally a very open person, but around him, I get all boring. I know that I will definitley open up with time, but some of the other people I've been with, at first, I was quiet with them too, and they didn't wait and see if things will turn around. I hope this won't be the case, all this happens becuse I like him anyway.
Yesterday sucked.... my parents made me go to the Kennedy Space Center. My brother called me the night before and made me cancel all of my plans for that day. He said I HAVE to go. I had to drive my aunt and mother to Cape Canaveral. 3 Hours just to get there. If I sped a little, my mother would start freaking out, freaking me out in the process. But since I followed the speed limit most of the time, maybe my mother will let me drive to Orlando by myself now. OMFG and I didn't even get to go to Starbucks and try the Gingerbread Latte that I've wanted to try for some time now. grrrrrrrr. I wanted to kick everything I encountered that day. The only good thing yesterday was, when I got back, I got to go to Clearwater (after Chris left ;________;) and spin fire with Marc. It was just the 2 of us... we practiced since there was no one there anyway. Next Saturday, there should be more people. I don't know if I'm going to go though because I am supposed to go over to Kara's that night XDXD I miss her so.
So it'll be another 2 weeks before I see Chris again >:o Grrrr.
Work is later today. I'm hanging out with Miguel in a few minutes before work though... for like an hour. Someone to rant to about yesterday lol.
Lately, my posts have all been friends-only posts so I'll make this one public if anyone else ever reads this :P
Yesterday sucked.... my parents made me go to the Kennedy Space Center. My brother called me the night before and made me cancel all of my plans for that day. He said I HAVE to go. I had to drive my aunt and mother to Cape Canaveral. 3 Hours just to get there. If I sped a little, my mother would start freaking out, freaking me out in the process. But since I followed the speed limit most of the time, maybe my mother will let me drive to Orlando by myself now. OMFG and I didn't even get to go to Starbucks and try the Gingerbread Latte that I've wanted to try for some time now. grrrrrrrr. I wanted to kick everything I encountered that day. The only good thing yesterday was, when I got back, I got to go to Clearwater (after Chris left ;________;) and spin fire with Marc. It was just the 2 of us... we practiced since there was no one there anyway. Next Saturday, there should be more people. I don't know if I'm going to go though because I am supposed to go over to Kara's that night XDXD I miss her so.
So it'll be another 2 weeks before I see Chris again >:o Grrrr.
Work is later today. I'm hanging out with Miguel in a few minutes before work though... for like an hour. Someone to rant to about yesterday lol.
Lately, my posts have all been friends-only posts so I'll make this one public if anyone else ever reads this :P