today
heh x.x I guess I've lost most of my purpose for this thing, really I started it because I had nothing better to do, now I relise how much of jackass I am..Im sure tons of people out there can agree with it and right now I can't really say I am exacally against them, Aryn if you read this I wish I could say sorry enough times for you to believe me, and that I will always be your friend no matter what, and Leah if you read this you know how I feel and I wish I could give you the world, things just keep getting worse and worse...I can't tell anyone how I feel so I'm leaving a message to warn anyone who actually does check on me, my life is going out of control and im starting to worry if im going to be able to keep it up much longer, I want you all to know that This may or maynot be my last post because I don't even know how to feel right now but I know that sometimes you wish to find a reason not to live anymore, and theres always some reason you can discover that fits your state of mind, but can we even really go through with it is the question?