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He wants me to die... they all do and as of right now.. I think I even want to... NO this is 'honest time'- I KNOW I want to... Note to self-It's time
When i am at the point. .I get cold chills. MY body goes numb. and I know its time to do it.. its ok because I cant feel it.. then I see the blood and I wander why i Still only feel the pain in my heart. Pain inside hurts but no one can see it or undestnad.. and this is what they can see... I feel guilty when Im happy and when I smile because I know I dont deserve to when other people are sad. and this is when I wish it was all over... It goes away.. for a while that is
This is me , just being honest. The funny thing is no one sees my true honesty because i do whatever it takes to make sure they dont know..
When i am at the point. .I get cold chills. MY body goes numb. and I know its time to do it.. its ok because I cant feel it.. then I see the blood and I wander why i Still only feel the pain in my heart. Pain inside hurts but no one can see it or undestnad.. and this is what they can see... I feel guilty when Im happy and when I smile because I know I dont deserve to when other people are sad. and this is when I wish it was all over... It goes away.. for a while that is
This is me , just being honest. The funny thing is no one sees my true honesty because i do whatever it takes to make sure they dont know..