[Behind the Curtain] Revelations Part Two - 19 November 1999
This leads directly from this post in Adam's LJ:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/adam_jason/27774.html
Trowa: *leans against the wall looking at Quatre* *waits for a while for someone to speak but no one does* *glares at Quatre* Do I have to question you?
Kevin: *cringes and moves closer to Megabyte* *moves my hands under my legs and clenches them into fists*
Quatre: *very very quietly* No, but .....*trails off, not sure where to start*
Trowa: *keeps staring at Quatre* *waits*
Adam: *is still wondering what the hell Quatre meant by seeing Kevin die again* *doesn't like the conclusions I'm drawing* *clenches my fists to stop my hands shaking*
Megabyte: *looks from Trowa to Quatre and sighs to myself* *bumps Kev's shoulder and smiles at him* *reaches out to caress Adam telepathically*
Quatre: *tries to keep my voice even* I don't know where to start apart from the fact I'm sorry. *Lowers my eyes* Do you want to know about the plan to do with Adam's father first or *shakes my head* I just didn't want to risk anything happening again.
Adam: *sharply* Again? What the hell do you mean by that?
Trowa: Again?
Megabyte: *puts an arm around Adam and pulls him close*
Trowa: *whispers* Quatre, I agreed to come back because I trusted you *in an even tone* If you want to keep that trust you will explain what were you keeping from us.
Adam: *allows Megabyte to hold me* *is starting to shake* *quietly* It's the reason you came back in time, isn't it? You know what will happen.
Quatre: *low voice, shaking* I know you trusted me. I'm not sure you should have. *raises my eyes, not hiding my pain* I was scared I wouldn't be able to stop it again. Scared that if you knew, it would all happen again. It was safer if only I knew.
Kevin: *keeps looking between Trowa and Cat not sure what to think* *scared and wants to bolt*
Quatre: *can feel Kev's distress and it adds to my guilt*
Trowa: *eyes soften for a second* Is it safe to explain now?
Megabyte: *kisses the top of Adam's head and holds him tight to me* *puts my other arm around Kev even though he is sitting rigidly and does not respond*
Quatre: *shakes my head* I really don't know. *choked voice* I'm not sure we change anything. I had hoped that we could but I just don't know anymore. *looks over at Adam* *Softly* Yes, I know what happened. You told me.
Megabyte: What the hell? How'd he do that?
Quatre: *sighs* *runs my hands through my hair* You aren't going to like this. I...I didn't want you to know. I'ts going to hurt. God, it hurt me when I saw it, and I didn't know you then. *softly to Kev* I'm sorry.
Adam: Oh God. It's true, isn't it? It's starting and it's true.
Trowa: *looks at Adam* What do you know?
Kevin: *squeezes my fists tighter feeling the nails bite into my palms* *drops my eyes* *nods my head*
Megabyte:*takes my arm from around Kev and holds Adam with both of them* *to Trowa* Been having nightmares. Since the.....Since I.... Since Zero.
Adam: *shakes my head* Wait till Quatre's finished, then I'll tell you what they are. *is hoping like hell he's not going to say what I think he is* *choked voice* They might not be the same. They can't be the same.
Trowa: *looks at Quatre again* We are waiting
Quatre: *slowly* *to Trowa* You remember why we came back in time? That I'd told you that we have to save the Tomorrow People?
Trowa: I thought we had accomplished that.
Quatre: *shrugs* I'm not sure. The hunters are still out there. That *stumbles* mission proved that we can't protect them ...us...like I had hoped. *Swallows* *to Adam, Megabyte and Kev* We came back in time because I found a telepathic message on the ship from Adam.
Adam: *looks at you* What? Why me? *slowly* You came back to /save/ us? *goes pale* Oh God. No.
Megabyte: *keeps holding Adam and starts to rock us* Gonna be okay, Adam.
Trowa: I ask again, Quatre. What are you still hiding?
Quatre: *doesn't want to say this, but knows now I've started I have to* *looks at Trowa again* He...I....he showed me images of how everyone died. *swallows* I saw them die. All of them. *looks down* Myself included.
Megabyte: *freezes* What the fuck are you talking about?
Trowa: You what? *moves from the wall and walks towards Quatre, standing an inch away from him* *glares* *clenches fists* *doesn't trust his voice or his actions* *breathes heavily*
Kevin: *Whimpers softly*
Quatre: *looks at Kev* The images Adam showed me, the message he left. When Kevin died, someone screamed his name. It was me. I saw myself. I *chokes* ran to him, held him, and they shot me, like they'd shot him. *Is shaking* I must... [ I must have been there, tried to save them and failed. Don't you see? It's the only fucking thing that makes sense] *shakes my head* [ I couldn't let that happen again. I couldn't. I thought if I changed things, brought you all back, I could stop it. You could stop it. I couldn't.] *looks at Kev* *choked voice* I didn't want you to die. Any of you.
Kevin: *whimpers again* *can feel all the anger and fear in the room* *can barely even focus on what is being said with the force of what everyone is feeling*
Adam: *feels my knees start to buckle* Oh god, oh god, oh god. *shakes my head* It can't be. *tries to calm myself* How did everyone else die, Quatre? What did you see?
Trowa: And you didn't think we needed to know this? *steps away from Quatre* You knew you were in danger and you didn't inform us. This was a mission, Quatre, and you failed to give us all the relative information. *hits the wall* What if something had happened to you. You acted foolishly and it could have cost you your life.
Megabyte: *pulls Adam tight against me and strokes his hair*
Quatre: Don't you get it? *voice raising* It already did. If I told you, there was more risk of history repeating again. If you didn't know it was safer. I thought that maybe I'd failed because I knew. You weren't there that first time. You were supposed to be safe. /You/ weren't supposed to be a Tomorrow Person.
Kevin: *grabs the back of Megabyte's shirt and tries to steady myself* *feels like I'm drowning*
Adam: [ How did the others die, Quatre? Please. I need to know] *can't bring myself to speak*
Trowa: You can't predict things, Quatre. The fact that we couldn't go back proves it. *sighs* Answer Adam's question. I know you won't listen to me.
Quatre: *to Trowa sadly* I'm sorry. *knows I've ruined what we had, and what I had with Kev as well by keeping this to myself* I've made a mistake. I should have told you. I just....*Lowers my eyes* it seemed like the only way open.*sigh* *studies the floor, not able to bring myself to look at any of you* It was the hunters. I've already told you they shot Kev. *is shaking at the memory* Repeatly. Jade....they....*hoarse whisper* they cut her throat. They threatened Ami's mother, then shot both of them. *forces myself to look at Megabyte* They were torturing you, trying to get information. That's what Adam thought. He said you were dead, and that he was going after you. He kept saying....not alone. *Is feeling ill* *weak voice* Excuse me. *runs from the room into the bathroom and throws up*
Adam: *keeps shaking my head* No! No! It's not real. It's a nightmare. It's not true. I won't let it. I can't.....*closes my eyes, but all I can see is the scenes playing through over and over again*
Megabyte:*tightens my hold on Adam* *reaches out to caress him telepathically* *can feel Kev hanging on to my shirt and feels bad because I can't hold him* *reaches out to caress him telepathically*
Trowa: *leans heavily on the wall* *frustrated* *tries to calm myself*
Megabyte: *Swallows hard* [Just like the nightmare. Happened the same way. All of it.]
Adam: *Nods* *can't bring myself to say anything*
Trowa: Fuck! *walks to the bathroom* *wets a kleenex with cold water and puts in on Quatre's neck while running circles on his back with my other hand*
Megabyte: *lets go of Adam with one hand and reaches back to pull Kev around the front* *wraps my arms around both of them*
Quatre: *is hanging onto the toilet bowl and shaking* *isn't sure why you're even doing this* [ I"m sorry.] *turns to look at you, not hiding my tears* [ I can leave if you want me to.] *tries to pull myself to my feet*
Kevin: *puts an arm around Megabyte and one around Adam* *hides my face against Adam's arm and starts to cry softly*
Adam: *absently strokes Kevin's hair* *is trying to get my head around this, but at the same time not think about it* *keeps shaking my head* It's not real. *buries my head on Megabyte's shoulder* [ Don't want to lose you. Don't want to lose any of you]
Trowa: *puts my arms around you* *kisses your neck* You are stubborn, Quatre, and very foolish sometimes but I love you, and I'm not letting go.
Quatre: I am very foolish. *buries myself in your embrace, even though I know I don't deserve it* *chokes* Go to Kev. He needs you more.
Megabyte: *Keeps holding both Adam and Kev* *reaches out to caress them both telepathically* [Not gonna Adam. Gonna be okay.]
Trowa: *shakes head* He needs us, Quatre.
Quatre: I've done enough damage. He needs you. I can't hurt him anymore than I already have. *looks at you* I saw him die in my arms, Trowa. I can't let them do that again.
Trowa: *holds your chin up so you are looking at my eyes* You'll hurt him more by staying away. Don't make another mistake.
Quatre: *Swallows* *knows I have to trust you* Help us, Trowa. Please.
Trowa: *holds your hand* Come. We can all help each other.
Quatre: *squeezes your hand* I thought you wouldn't want me, that I'd lost both of you because of this. You have Kevin. You trust him more than you trust me. You have to after this. *voice hoarse* I won't keep anything from you again. I promise.
Trowa: I trust you, Cat. Always have. *softly* I just don't think you trust me.
Quatre: I've always trusted you, Trowa. I just don't trust myself.
Trowa: [Then trust in my judgment] *squeezes your hand* Come, Kevin is waiting.
Quatre: [ I love you.] *caresses you through the bond* [ If there are consequences because of this, I put myself in your hands. In both your hands] *squeezes your hand back* *sudden thought* Oh god, his shielding.
Trowa: *starts pulling you out of the bathroom* I'm taking care of that. Come.
Quatre: *follows you out of the bathroom, not letting go of your hand, needing to feel you physically*
Trowa: *leads Quatre towards Kevin* *sits down, pulling Quatre with me and sitting him between Kevin and me*
Megabyte: *looks at Trowa and then relinquishes my hold on Kev* *wraps both arms around Adam and holds him close* *eases us over to the love seat and pulls us down to sit on the floor*
Kevin: *wraps my arms around Cat's neck and starts sobbing harder* [Don't leave me. You promised. Don't leave me.]
Adam: *puts both my arms around Megabyte and just holds him tightly, not wanting to let go* *is shaking, can't bring myself to speak*
Quatre*strokes Kev's hair**Pulls him into an embrace* *kisses him gently* [ I won't. As long as you still want me, I'm here.] *can feel your pain like a sharp physical pain in my chest* [ I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I was scared of losing you. I couldn't. I just couldn't.]
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's hair and shifts to pull him into my lap* *wraps myself around him physically and telepathically* *doesn't say anything just keeps rocking us*
Trowa: *projects calmness and love*
Kevin: *starts to feel less panicked by does not loosen my hold on Cat* *reaches out for him and Trowa*
Quatre: *opens myself up to Kev and Trowa completely through the bond* *whispers* No more secrets.
Megabyte: *looks up and meets Trowa's eyes* *to Trowa* [What the fuck are we gonna do now?]
Trowa: *looks at MB.* [We take care of them. And then we fight]
Megabyte:*kisses the top of Adam's head and keeps looking at Trowa* [Tell me whatcha want me to do.]
Trowa: *caresses Quatre's hand* To MB. [We need to start gathering information on them, and we need to talk to the others. But for now, just take care of Adam. He's strong, and we'll need him]
Adam: *leans into Megabyte* *low voice* I'm sorry. *to Megabyte* [ I need to pull myself together. I feel like an emotional idiot]
Megabyte: *nods* *to Trowa* [Plan to do that.] *pauses* [Suppose to be Quatre and Duo's plan. Do we need to get Duo here too?] *to Adam* [Love you. Don't need to be sorry.]
Quatre: *keeps holding Kev and stroking his hair* *leans back against Trowa, with Kev in my arms, taking strength and calm from Trowa*
Trowa: *nods to MB* Quatre, you and Duo need to explain your plan to us now. To us and the others.
Kevin: *takes a couple of deep breaths and rubs at my eyes* *keeps my arms around Cat's neck. Wanting to be close*
Quatre: *sheepishly* We haven't really got much of a plan yet. *bites down on my lip* He was going to tell Heero and Wufei. I was supposed to tell you but I hadn't....*stops, not wanting to continue*
Trowa: Tell us what you have so far.
Quatre: We were going to kidnap Adam's father, so that we had control over the location and the set up. So that it would be safer for Adam and for all of us.
Duo: [*sleepy mental voice* Quatre, is there something going on? Getting weirdness from you and Kevin. Woke me up.] [Somebody sick? I got puking. And may I say, not fun to wake up to THAT.]
Quatre: He's just pathed me. I think we woke him up.
Trowa: Good, he can come over.
Adam: *Nods* *starting to feel a bit calmer, or at least hiding my distress better* It's probably better if we're all on the same page.
Quatre: [ Duo, could you come over? We're at home.] *pause* [ I'm sorry. That was me being sick. I didn't mean to wake you]
Megabyte: *nods but doesn't say anything* *keeps holding Adam and stroking his face*
Duo: [No problem. Fell asleep on the couch waiting for Wufei to come home from the library. He's studying for an exam. Give me a sec and I'll be over. Your place?] *stand up, scratching my butt and yawns widely, looking for my boots*
Quatre: [ Yes.] *wraps myself around Kev telepathically* *to Trowa* [ I"m worried about him]
Duo: *teleports* *looks around* Geez, who died?
Megabyte: *flinches* Hey, Duo.
Duo: Everyone okay? You all look kinda freaked.
Quatre: *quietly* I think you'd better sit down.
Trowa: *nods at Duo and projects love to Kevin* To Quatre [have faith in him, he's strong]
Duo: *grins wryly and levitates myself into a sitting position, sitting on nothing* Okay, I'm sitting.
Trowa: *snorts* show off
Quatre: *to Trowa* [ I know.] *strokes Kev's cheek* [ He thought I was going to leave.] *very hoarse voice* You need to sit down properly, Duo. Please.
Duo: *sticks my tongue out at Trowa* Can't stand it when I can do a trick that you can't, can you? *lowers myself slowly to the floor* What happened now? *sighs loudly*
Adam: *to Quatre* Do you want me to explain or will you?
Quatre: *shakes my head* *Sigh* This is my responsibility. I'll do it. *manages a weak smile, knowing how much the offer would have cost you* Thank you.
Trowa: *puts a hand on Quatre's shoulder* No. I will.
Duo: *raises eyebrows* *glances at Adam* Adam's dad didn't try something, did he?
Megabyte: *Shakes my head no*
Quatre: *gives Trowa a nod and focuses my attention on Kev* *Is relieved and very thankful*
Adam: *shakes my head* *to Trowa* [Thank you.]
Trowa: No. This is about why we came back in time. *pauses* Back home Quatre saw some very disturbing images about the fate of the TPs of this time but he was here too. In some different time he came back and died. That's why he asked us : to join him. He needed our help
Kevin: *pulls closer to Cat* *keeps holding him tightly to me*
Duo: *picks at my fingernails* But, we're not dead. *shrugs* *slowly* But, it hasn't happened yet, huh?
Adam: *Slowly* Quatre, in the message I left, did I say what started everything? Who told the hunters where to find us?
Quatre: *shakes my head, frowning* No. The beginning of the message was decayed. It started with the murders. Why?
Adam: *swallows* [ In my dream, it was my father. It started with my father.]
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's hair* *shifts so he is more able to look at everyone else in the room*
Duo: Weird dreams must be part of this TP thing, then?
Quatre: *Smiles down at Kevin* *Softly* Yes.
Duo: Oh, good, because I've had some doozies myself. Q, where were Trowa and I in your dream? Or any of the others that came back?
Megabyte: *Softly* Wasn't in Adam's. Just Quatre and couldn't see to tell who it was.
Quatre: *shakes my head* I didn't dream, Adam did. In the future he left me a message through the ship.*quietly* He's been dreaming now, the same thing that is in the message. You and the others weren't mentioned in his message. Just Kev, MB, Adam, Jade, Ami and *looks down* me.
Adam: I couldn't see it was Quatre in the dream. I heard someone scream kev's name, but I didn't know it was him.
Duo: *thinks* Sorry, Adam's dream. So, if this is precognition, then we've already changed one thing. The question is, have we changed enough?
Kevin: *tightens my hold on Cat*
Quatre: *shakes head* I don't know. The rest of you weren't mentioned in Adam's message but that doesn't neccessarily mean you weren't here, just that he didn't mention you.
Adam: *nods slowly* You weren't in my dream, but I couldn't see Quatre in the dream, yet he saw himself in my message. I'm not sure what that means either.
Duo: Dreams are symbolic Adam. Maybe there was a reason you couldn't see Quatre's face. Or maybe when the probability of an event isn't 100%, there's gaps in what you receive.
Adam: But it's starting already. My father led them to us. He's looking for me.
Duo: But, we're already planning to change events again. Everything we change from the original time line, the one Adam saw, makes it less likely to happen.
Megabyte: *nods in agreement* Gotta do it different this time.
Duo: So, we definitely intervene before Adam's dad turns us over to the Hunters. That was what Q and I planned anyway. More necessary than we thought.
Adam*sigh* I had hoped but I didn't believe it.
Trowa: Do you still want to meet with him?
Duo: Nuthing wrong with hoping.
Adam: *quietly* I don't know. I just don't know anymore. If it's going to lead to this future, I don't think I have that right.
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's back* Need to tell him how ya feel.
Duo: Well, I do. I want to find out where those fucking Hunters are that got to him.
Adam: I don't even know how I feel, love. *shakes head* He's still my father, after everything he's done.
Quatre: I'm not sure we have the option of sitting back and seeing what happens anymore. They came after us the first time. We've been in their custody once. I don't intend for that to happen again. *shakes my head* But if Adam's father started this last time. *looks down and strokes Kev's cheek* I don't want to see you all die again.
Duo: If there's any kidnapping done this time, I'll be us doin' it.
Kevin: *keeps holding on tightly* *projects love, comfort, safety*
Duo: I've filled Wufei and Heero in on this, just so you know. Relena too, of course. They needed to know to be safe.
Quatre: I need to tell them the details about the message Adam left too. *to Adam* We should tell them about your dream too.
Megabyte: What about Zechs? Came after him before. Jade and Sally need to know too.
Duo: *nods*
Quatre: Everyone needs to be aware. Of all of this. *swallows* I can tell them if you like.
Trowa: I'll be with you
Quatre: *Smiles up at Trowa and caresses him through the bond* Thank you, love.
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Trowa: *leans against the wall looking at Quatre* *waits for a while for someone to speak but no one does* *glares at Quatre* Do I have to question you?
Kevin: *cringes and moves closer to Megabyte* *moves my hands under my legs and clenches them into fists*
Quatre: *very very quietly* No, but .....*trails off, not sure where to start*
Trowa: *keeps staring at Quatre* *waits*
Adam: *is still wondering what the hell Quatre meant by seeing Kevin die again* *doesn't like the conclusions I'm drawing* *clenches my fists to stop my hands shaking*
Megabyte: *looks from Trowa to Quatre and sighs to myself* *bumps Kev's shoulder and smiles at him* *reaches out to caress Adam telepathically*
Quatre: *tries to keep my voice even* I don't know where to start apart from the fact I'm sorry. *Lowers my eyes* Do you want to know about the plan to do with Adam's father first or *shakes my head* I just didn't want to risk anything happening again.
Adam: *sharply* Again? What the hell do you mean by that?
Trowa: Again?
Megabyte: *puts an arm around Adam and pulls him close*
Trowa: *whispers* Quatre, I agreed to come back because I trusted you *in an even tone* If you want to keep that trust you will explain what were you keeping from us.
Adam: *allows Megabyte to hold me* *is starting to shake* *quietly* It's the reason you came back in time, isn't it? You know what will happen.
Quatre: *low voice, shaking* I know you trusted me. I'm not sure you should have. *raises my eyes, not hiding my pain* I was scared I wouldn't be able to stop it again. Scared that if you knew, it would all happen again. It was safer if only I knew.
Kevin: *keeps looking between Trowa and Cat not sure what to think* *scared and wants to bolt*
Quatre: *can feel Kev's distress and it adds to my guilt*
Trowa: *eyes soften for a second* Is it safe to explain now?
Megabyte: *kisses the top of Adam's head and holds him tight to me* *puts my other arm around Kev even though he is sitting rigidly and does not respond*
Quatre: *shakes my head* I really don't know. *choked voice* I'm not sure we change anything. I had hoped that we could but I just don't know anymore. *looks over at Adam* *Softly* Yes, I know what happened. You told me.
Megabyte: What the hell? How'd he do that?
Quatre: *sighs* *runs my hands through my hair* You aren't going to like this. I...I didn't want you to know. I'ts going to hurt. God, it hurt me when I saw it, and I didn't know you then. *softly to Kev* I'm sorry.
Adam: Oh God. It's true, isn't it? It's starting and it's true.
Trowa: *looks at Adam* What do you know?
Kevin: *squeezes my fists tighter feeling the nails bite into my palms* *drops my eyes* *nods my head*
Megabyte:*takes my arm from around Kev and holds Adam with both of them* *to Trowa* Been having nightmares. Since the.....Since I.... Since Zero.
Adam: *shakes my head* Wait till Quatre's finished, then I'll tell you what they are. *is hoping like hell he's not going to say what I think he is* *choked voice* They might not be the same. They can't be the same.
Trowa: *looks at Quatre again* We are waiting
Quatre: *slowly* *to Trowa* You remember why we came back in time? That I'd told you that we have to save the Tomorrow People?
Trowa: I thought we had accomplished that.
Quatre: *shrugs* I'm not sure. The hunters are still out there. That *stumbles* mission proved that we can't protect them ...us...like I had hoped. *Swallows* *to Adam, Megabyte and Kev* We came back in time because I found a telepathic message on the ship from Adam.
Adam: *looks at you* What? Why me? *slowly* You came back to /save/ us? *goes pale* Oh God. No.
Megabyte: *keeps holding Adam and starts to rock us* Gonna be okay, Adam.
Trowa: I ask again, Quatre. What are you still hiding?
Quatre: *doesn't want to say this, but knows now I've started I have to* *looks at Trowa again* He...I....he showed me images of how everyone died. *swallows* I saw them die. All of them. *looks down* Myself included.
Megabyte: *freezes* What the fuck are you talking about?
Trowa: You what? *moves from the wall and walks towards Quatre, standing an inch away from him* *glares* *clenches fists* *doesn't trust his voice or his actions* *breathes heavily*
Kevin: *Whimpers softly*
Quatre: *looks at Kev* The images Adam showed me, the message he left. When Kevin died, someone screamed his name. It was me. I saw myself. I *chokes* ran to him, held him, and they shot me, like they'd shot him. *Is shaking* I must... [ I must have been there, tried to save them and failed. Don't you see? It's the only fucking thing that makes sense] *shakes my head* [ I couldn't let that happen again. I couldn't. I thought if I changed things, brought you all back, I could stop it. You could stop it. I couldn't.] *looks at Kev* *choked voice* I didn't want you to die. Any of you.
Kevin: *whimpers again* *can feel all the anger and fear in the room* *can barely even focus on what is being said with the force of what everyone is feeling*
Adam: *feels my knees start to buckle* Oh god, oh god, oh god. *shakes my head* It can't be. *tries to calm myself* How did everyone else die, Quatre? What did you see?
Trowa: And you didn't think we needed to know this? *steps away from Quatre* You knew you were in danger and you didn't inform us. This was a mission, Quatre, and you failed to give us all the relative information. *hits the wall* What if something had happened to you. You acted foolishly and it could have cost you your life.
Megabyte: *pulls Adam tight against me and strokes his hair*
Quatre: Don't you get it? *voice raising* It already did. If I told you, there was more risk of history repeating again. If you didn't know it was safer. I thought that maybe I'd failed because I knew. You weren't there that first time. You were supposed to be safe. /You/ weren't supposed to be a Tomorrow Person.
Kevin: *grabs the back of Megabyte's shirt and tries to steady myself* *feels like I'm drowning*
Adam: [ How did the others die, Quatre? Please. I need to know] *can't bring myself to speak*
Trowa: You can't predict things, Quatre. The fact that we couldn't go back proves it. *sighs* Answer Adam's question. I know you won't listen to me.
Quatre: *to Trowa sadly* I'm sorry. *knows I've ruined what we had, and what I had with Kev as well by keeping this to myself* I've made a mistake. I should have told you. I just....*Lowers my eyes* it seemed like the only way open.*sigh* *studies the floor, not able to bring myself to look at any of you* It was the hunters. I've already told you they shot Kev. *is shaking at the memory* Repeatly. Jade....they....*hoarse whisper* they cut her throat. They threatened Ami's mother, then shot both of them. *forces myself to look at Megabyte* They were torturing you, trying to get information. That's what Adam thought. He said you were dead, and that he was going after you. He kept saying....not alone. *Is feeling ill* *weak voice* Excuse me. *runs from the room into the bathroom and throws up*
Adam: *keeps shaking my head* No! No! It's not real. It's a nightmare. It's not true. I won't let it. I can't.....*closes my eyes, but all I can see is the scenes playing through over and over again*
Megabyte:*tightens my hold on Adam* *reaches out to caress him telepathically* *can feel Kev hanging on to my shirt and feels bad because I can't hold him* *reaches out to caress him telepathically*
Trowa: *leans heavily on the wall* *frustrated* *tries to calm myself*
Megabyte: *Swallows hard* [Just like the nightmare. Happened the same way. All of it.]
Adam: *Nods* *can't bring myself to say anything*
Trowa: Fuck! *walks to the bathroom* *wets a kleenex with cold water and puts in on Quatre's neck while running circles on his back with my other hand*
Megabyte: *lets go of Adam with one hand and reaches back to pull Kev around the front* *wraps my arms around both of them*
Quatre: *is hanging onto the toilet bowl and shaking* *isn't sure why you're even doing this* [ I"m sorry.] *turns to look at you, not hiding my tears* [ I can leave if you want me to.] *tries to pull myself to my feet*
Kevin: *puts an arm around Megabyte and one around Adam* *hides my face against Adam's arm and starts to cry softly*
Adam: *absently strokes Kevin's hair* *is trying to get my head around this, but at the same time not think about it* *keeps shaking my head* It's not real. *buries my head on Megabyte's shoulder* [ Don't want to lose you. Don't want to lose any of you]
Trowa: *puts my arms around you* *kisses your neck* You are stubborn, Quatre, and very foolish sometimes but I love you, and I'm not letting go.
Quatre: I am very foolish. *buries myself in your embrace, even though I know I don't deserve it* *chokes* Go to Kev. He needs you more.
Megabyte: *Keeps holding both Adam and Kev* *reaches out to caress them both telepathically* [Not gonna Adam. Gonna be okay.]
Trowa: *shakes head* He needs us, Quatre.
Quatre: I've done enough damage. He needs you. I can't hurt him anymore than I already have. *looks at you* I saw him die in my arms, Trowa. I can't let them do that again.
Trowa: *holds your chin up so you are looking at my eyes* You'll hurt him more by staying away. Don't make another mistake.
Quatre: *Swallows* *knows I have to trust you* Help us, Trowa. Please.
Trowa: *holds your hand* Come. We can all help each other.
Quatre: *squeezes your hand* I thought you wouldn't want me, that I'd lost both of you because of this. You have Kevin. You trust him more than you trust me. You have to after this. *voice hoarse* I won't keep anything from you again. I promise.
Trowa: I trust you, Cat. Always have. *softly* I just don't think you trust me.
Quatre: I've always trusted you, Trowa. I just don't trust myself.
Trowa: [Then trust in my judgment] *squeezes your hand* Come, Kevin is waiting.
Quatre: [ I love you.] *caresses you through the bond* [ If there are consequences because of this, I put myself in your hands. In both your hands] *squeezes your hand back* *sudden thought* Oh god, his shielding.
Trowa: *starts pulling you out of the bathroom* I'm taking care of that. Come.
Quatre: *follows you out of the bathroom, not letting go of your hand, needing to feel you physically*
Trowa: *leads Quatre towards Kevin* *sits down, pulling Quatre with me and sitting him between Kevin and me*
Megabyte: *looks at Trowa and then relinquishes my hold on Kev* *wraps both arms around Adam and holds him close* *eases us over to the love seat and pulls us down to sit on the floor*
Kevin: *wraps my arms around Cat's neck and starts sobbing harder* [Don't leave me. You promised. Don't leave me.]
Adam: *puts both my arms around Megabyte and just holds him tightly, not wanting to let go* *is shaking, can't bring myself to speak*
Quatre*strokes Kev's hair**Pulls him into an embrace* *kisses him gently* [ I won't. As long as you still want me, I'm here.] *can feel your pain like a sharp physical pain in my chest* [ I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I was scared of losing you. I couldn't. I just couldn't.]
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's hair and shifts to pull him into my lap* *wraps myself around him physically and telepathically* *doesn't say anything just keeps rocking us*
Trowa: *projects calmness and love*
Kevin: *starts to feel less panicked by does not loosen my hold on Cat* *reaches out for him and Trowa*
Quatre: *opens myself up to Kev and Trowa completely through the bond* *whispers* No more secrets.
Megabyte: *looks up and meets Trowa's eyes* *to Trowa* [What the fuck are we gonna do now?]
Trowa: *looks at MB.* [We take care of them. And then we fight]
Megabyte:*kisses the top of Adam's head and keeps looking at Trowa* [Tell me whatcha want me to do.]
Trowa: *caresses Quatre's hand* To MB. [We need to start gathering information on them, and we need to talk to the others. But for now, just take care of Adam. He's strong, and we'll need him]
Adam: *leans into Megabyte* *low voice* I'm sorry. *to Megabyte* [ I need to pull myself together. I feel like an emotional idiot]
Megabyte: *nods* *to Trowa* [Plan to do that.] *pauses* [Suppose to be Quatre and Duo's plan. Do we need to get Duo here too?] *to Adam* [Love you. Don't need to be sorry.]
Quatre: *keeps holding Kev and stroking his hair* *leans back against Trowa, with Kev in my arms, taking strength and calm from Trowa*
Trowa: *nods to MB* Quatre, you and Duo need to explain your plan to us now. To us and the others.
Kevin: *takes a couple of deep breaths and rubs at my eyes* *keeps my arms around Cat's neck. Wanting to be close*
Quatre: *sheepishly* We haven't really got much of a plan yet. *bites down on my lip* He was going to tell Heero and Wufei. I was supposed to tell you but I hadn't....*stops, not wanting to continue*
Trowa: Tell us what you have so far.
Quatre: We were going to kidnap Adam's father, so that we had control over the location and the set up. So that it would be safer for Adam and for all of us.
Duo: [*sleepy mental voice* Quatre, is there something going on? Getting weirdness from you and Kevin. Woke me up.] [Somebody sick? I got puking. And may I say, not fun to wake up to THAT.]
Quatre: He's just pathed me. I think we woke him up.
Trowa: Good, he can come over.
Adam: *Nods* *starting to feel a bit calmer, or at least hiding my distress better* It's probably better if we're all on the same page.
Quatre: [ Duo, could you come over? We're at home.] *pause* [ I'm sorry. That was me being sick. I didn't mean to wake you]
Megabyte: *nods but doesn't say anything* *keeps holding Adam and stroking his face*
Duo: [No problem. Fell asleep on the couch waiting for Wufei to come home from the library. He's studying for an exam. Give me a sec and I'll be over. Your place?] *stand up, scratching my butt and yawns widely, looking for my boots*
Quatre: [ Yes.] *wraps myself around Kev telepathically* *to Trowa* [ I"m worried about him]
Duo: *teleports* *looks around* Geez, who died?
Megabyte: *flinches* Hey, Duo.
Duo: Everyone okay? You all look kinda freaked.
Quatre: *quietly* I think you'd better sit down.
Trowa: *nods at Duo and projects love to Kevin* To Quatre [have faith in him, he's strong]
Duo: *grins wryly and levitates myself into a sitting position, sitting on nothing* Okay, I'm sitting.
Trowa: *snorts* show off
Quatre: *to Trowa* [ I know.] *strokes Kev's cheek* [ He thought I was going to leave.] *very hoarse voice* You need to sit down properly, Duo. Please.
Duo: *sticks my tongue out at Trowa* Can't stand it when I can do a trick that you can't, can you? *lowers myself slowly to the floor* What happened now? *sighs loudly*
Adam: *to Quatre* Do you want me to explain or will you?
Quatre: *shakes my head* *Sigh* This is my responsibility. I'll do it. *manages a weak smile, knowing how much the offer would have cost you* Thank you.
Trowa: *puts a hand on Quatre's shoulder* No. I will.
Duo: *raises eyebrows* *glances at Adam* Adam's dad didn't try something, did he?
Megabyte: *Shakes my head no*
Quatre: *gives Trowa a nod and focuses my attention on Kev* *Is relieved and very thankful*
Adam: *shakes my head* *to Trowa* [Thank you.]
Trowa: No. This is about why we came back in time. *pauses* Back home Quatre saw some very disturbing images about the fate of the TPs of this time but he was here too. In some different time he came back and died. That's why he asked us : to join him. He needed our help
Kevin: *pulls closer to Cat* *keeps holding him tightly to me*
Duo: *picks at my fingernails* But, we're not dead. *shrugs* *slowly* But, it hasn't happened yet, huh?
Adam: *Slowly* Quatre, in the message I left, did I say what started everything? Who told the hunters where to find us?
Quatre: *shakes my head, frowning* No. The beginning of the message was decayed. It started with the murders. Why?
Adam: *swallows* [ In my dream, it was my father. It started with my father.]
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's hair* *shifts so he is more able to look at everyone else in the room*
Duo: Weird dreams must be part of this TP thing, then?
Quatre: *Smiles down at Kevin* *Softly* Yes.
Duo: Oh, good, because I've had some doozies myself. Q, where were Trowa and I in your dream? Or any of the others that came back?
Megabyte: *Softly* Wasn't in Adam's. Just Quatre and couldn't see to tell who it was.
Quatre: *shakes my head* I didn't dream, Adam did. In the future he left me a message through the ship.*quietly* He's been dreaming now, the same thing that is in the message. You and the others weren't mentioned in his message. Just Kev, MB, Adam, Jade, Ami and *looks down* me.
Adam: I couldn't see it was Quatre in the dream. I heard someone scream kev's name, but I didn't know it was him.
Duo: *thinks* Sorry, Adam's dream. So, if this is precognition, then we've already changed one thing. The question is, have we changed enough?
Kevin: *tightens my hold on Cat*
Quatre: *shakes head* I don't know. The rest of you weren't mentioned in Adam's message but that doesn't neccessarily mean you weren't here, just that he didn't mention you.
Adam: *nods slowly* You weren't in my dream, but I couldn't see Quatre in the dream, yet he saw himself in my message. I'm not sure what that means either.
Duo: Dreams are symbolic Adam. Maybe there was a reason you couldn't see Quatre's face. Or maybe when the probability of an event isn't 100%, there's gaps in what you receive.
Adam: But it's starting already. My father led them to us. He's looking for me.
Duo: But, we're already planning to change events again. Everything we change from the original time line, the one Adam saw, makes it less likely to happen.
Megabyte: *nods in agreement* Gotta do it different this time.
Duo: So, we definitely intervene before Adam's dad turns us over to the Hunters. That was what Q and I planned anyway. More necessary than we thought.
Adam*sigh* I had hoped but I didn't believe it.
Trowa: Do you still want to meet with him?
Duo: Nuthing wrong with hoping.
Adam: *quietly* I don't know. I just don't know anymore. If it's going to lead to this future, I don't think I have that right.
Megabyte: *strokes Adam's back* Need to tell him how ya feel.
Duo: Well, I do. I want to find out where those fucking Hunters are that got to him.
Adam: I don't even know how I feel, love. *shakes head* He's still my father, after everything he's done.
Quatre: I'm not sure we have the option of sitting back and seeing what happens anymore. They came after us the first time. We've been in their custody once. I don't intend for that to happen again. *shakes my head* But if Adam's father started this last time. *looks down and strokes Kev's cheek* I don't want to see you all die again.
Duo: If there's any kidnapping done this time, I'll be us doin' it.
Kevin: *keeps holding on tightly* *projects love, comfort, safety*
Duo: I've filled Wufei and Heero in on this, just so you know. Relena too, of course. They needed to know to be safe.
Quatre: I need to tell them the details about the message Adam left too. *to Adam* We should tell them about your dream too.
Megabyte: What about Zechs? Came after him before. Jade and Sally need to know too.
Duo: *nods*
Quatre: Everyone needs to be aware. Of all of this. *swallows* I can tell them if you like.
Trowa: I'll be with you
Quatre: *Smiles up at Trowa and caresses him through the bond* Thank you, love.