A Year Ago Today
A Year ago today, Pepino, was the last day of my life.
It ended the next day.
I wouldn't get it back until mid-March.
I'm not that same person anymore, I know. But I was so scared.
5 days from now I was almost lost to those gray hours between night and day.
Those nothing hours of mist and cold.
They would've found my body in a hospital bed clutching my dolls.
That damned beeping sound never going off.
I almost didn't meet you. I would've never been able to nearly taste the stars,
January would've been my dying month.
Just like Ramona.
The day I almost died was a day the desert saw snow.
The snow wanted to take me with them, I believe.
When it melted, he wanted a companion.
In 5 days a woman will have attempted to kill me with ice and air conditioning- the night snow falls over all of Tucson.
I don't remember her face.
Pepino, I was so scared. I wish I had your books then for company.
I didn't want to die alone in the dark.
A year ago today you were still mourning the loss of Ramona, 11 days previous.
January is a bitter month.
It ended the next day.
I wouldn't get it back until mid-March.
I'm not that same person anymore, I know. But I was so scared.
5 days from now I was almost lost to those gray hours between night and day.
Those nothing hours of mist and cold.
They would've found my body in a hospital bed clutching my dolls.
That damned beeping sound never going off.
I almost didn't meet you. I would've never been able to nearly taste the stars,
January would've been my dying month.
Just like Ramona.
The day I almost died was a day the desert saw snow.
The snow wanted to take me with them, I believe.
When it melted, he wanted a companion.
In 5 days a woman will have attempted to kill me with ice and air conditioning- the night snow falls over all of Tucson.
I don't remember her face.
Pepino, I was so scared. I wish I had your books then for company.
I didn't want to die alone in the dark.
A year ago today you were still mourning the loss of Ramona, 11 days previous.
January is a bitter month.