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after listening to ellen's audio post, this song just came on, all by itself. it's been a really long time since i've heard it. it's so weird. i have such a strong attachment to it. when i hear it i think of dawson's creek and middle school and everything in the past that i had and everything i dreamed of having one day. i think of the way everything is now. and the future. it's so overwelming.
i started this post just meaning to talk about how i've slept in really late everyday and done almost nothing but watch tv and how i've loved every minute of it, especially today, doing a puzzle with my mom and my brother. but my mind started wandering and i got sad (suprise suprise, no?).
i just have to sum it up to say it, but i don't want to ramble right now.
things i hate(d):
-my friends in middle school (minus lauren)
-high school
-fake people
-losing people
-traumatic experiences that fuck people up more than make them a better person
-crying and not being able to stop. all the time.
-being sick
-sycophants
-drama without real reason
-irresponsibility
wow, i started, and just kept going. i'm stopping myself now, before i get too carried away.
(note: after this song, nothing came on. why only this song? i have no idea.)
but yes, so far this break has been 99% watching tv. this weekend is a marathon of every degrassi episode ever. shall i? yes, unless there's something else to distract me, considering all i feel like doing is...nothing. maybe just for this month, though. that's not HORRIBLY unhealthy.
well anyway, i don't have anything really to say.
2003:
# What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
found my soulmate
# Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't remember what they were, so i probably didn't. i'll probably make some, not sure what though since i haven't really thought about it, but i'm sure i won't keep those ones, either.
# Did anyone close to you give birth?
i don't think so
# Did anyone close to you die?
not really close
# What countries did you visit?
just this one
# What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
a sense of true accomplishment, a clean house haha, maybe a bit more self confidence (or less anal-ness)
# What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
1-28-2003. our anniversary.
# What was your biggest achievement of this year?
achievement, meaning like something i DID (as opposed to something that i participated in or something)? i guess my grades. and surviving on my own in my own place.
# What was your biggest failure?
not being all that organized, not doing a lot of the things i wanted to do
# Did you suffer illness or injury?
a bit mentally, nothing out of the ordinary physically
# What was the best thing you bought?
hmmm...wallace. :)
# Whose behaviour merited celebration?
i dunno whatever.
# Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
a bit of my own, a bit of other people. (especially at the beginning, in stern)
# Where did most of your money go?
food
# What did you get really, really excited about?
moving into my 1st apartment, being with doug
# What songs will always remind you of 2003?
*giggles*
# Compared to this time last year,
i. are you happier or sadder? - well i'm not in florida, which is a definite PLUS. let's see, i'm doing better in school, love, and friendships (more or less). yeah, now wins.
ii. thinner or fatter? - thinner, cuz no dc food (already made)
iii. richer or poorer? - more or less the same. i personally am poorer, but my family is richer, since i pay for a lot more of my own shit now than i did at the dorms (which, by the way, were hundreds of dollars more expensive a month)
# What do you wish you'd done more of?
meeting new people
# What do you wish you'd done less of?
probably sitting at my computer and self-doubting
# How will you be spending Christmas?
i'll wake up, open presents, probably laze around...i don't think we have anything planned. nice dinner, though.
# Did you fall in love in 2003?
and then some.
# How many one night stands?
whoa, none.
# What was your favourite TV programme?
real world, although i for the most part watched like NO tv
# Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not really...i don't care about anyone that much that i don't like. maybe mr. governor, though. dumb fuck.
# What was the best book you read?
slavenka drakulic's Cafe Europa, for history 5 last spring, probably.
# What was your greatest musical discovery?
god who knows...
# What did you want and get?
true love
# What did you want and not get?
more friends haha
# What was your favourite film of this year?
god i dunno. i don't watch a lot of movies, especially that came out this year.
# What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i'm 19, and for my birthday i went out to dinner, once with my family, once with friends.
# What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
two words: less crying
# How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
i think for the most part i own more clothing that i actually like now than i used to, but there's no real "concept" or anything
# What kept you sane?
doug, my friends
# Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
um...*shrugs*
# What political issue stirred you the most?
shit about religion hehe
# Who did you miss?
i missed how people used to be that i could no longer be friends with.
# Who was the best new person you met?
i don't really know who i met that was new, so it's difficult to say.
# Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
everything's gonna turn out okay in the end.
# Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i could explode because you just never, you never know." (the starting line -- lasting impressions)
i started this post just meaning to talk about how i've slept in really late everyday and done almost nothing but watch tv and how i've loved every minute of it, especially today, doing a puzzle with my mom and my brother. but my mind started wandering and i got sad (suprise suprise, no?).
i just have to sum it up to say it, but i don't want to ramble right now.
things i hate(d):
-my friends in middle school (minus lauren)
-high school
-fake people
-losing people
-traumatic experiences that fuck people up more than make them a better person
-crying and not being able to stop. all the time.
-being sick
-sycophants
-drama without real reason
-irresponsibility
wow, i started, and just kept going. i'm stopping myself now, before i get too carried away.
(note: after this song, nothing came on. why only this song? i have no idea.)
but yes, so far this break has been 99% watching tv. this weekend is a marathon of every degrassi episode ever. shall i? yes, unless there's something else to distract me, considering all i feel like doing is...nothing. maybe just for this month, though. that's not HORRIBLY unhealthy.
well anyway, i don't have anything really to say.
2003:
# What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
found my soulmate
# Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't remember what they were, so i probably didn't. i'll probably make some, not sure what though since i haven't really thought about it, but i'm sure i won't keep those ones, either.
# Did anyone close to you give birth?
i don't think so
# Did anyone close to you die?
not really close
# What countries did you visit?
just this one
# What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
a sense of true accomplishment, a clean house haha, maybe a bit more self confidence (or less anal-ness)
# What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
1-28-2003. our anniversary.
# What was your biggest achievement of this year?
achievement, meaning like something i DID (as opposed to something that i participated in or something)? i guess my grades. and surviving on my own in my own place.
# What was your biggest failure?
not being all that organized, not doing a lot of the things i wanted to do
# Did you suffer illness or injury?
a bit mentally, nothing out of the ordinary physically
# What was the best thing you bought?
hmmm...wallace. :)
# Whose behaviour merited celebration?
i dunno whatever.
# Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
a bit of my own, a bit of other people. (especially at the beginning, in stern)
# Where did most of your money go?
food
# What did you get really, really excited about?
moving into my 1st apartment, being with doug
# What songs will always remind you of 2003?
*giggles*
# Compared to this time last year,
i. are you happier or sadder? - well i'm not in florida, which is a definite PLUS. let's see, i'm doing better in school, love, and friendships (more or less). yeah, now wins.
ii. thinner or fatter? - thinner, cuz no dc food (already made)
iii. richer or poorer? - more or less the same. i personally am poorer, but my family is richer, since i pay for a lot more of my own shit now than i did at the dorms (which, by the way, were hundreds of dollars more expensive a month)
# What do you wish you'd done more of?
meeting new people
# What do you wish you'd done less of?
probably sitting at my computer and self-doubting
# How will you be spending Christmas?
i'll wake up, open presents, probably laze around...i don't think we have anything planned. nice dinner, though.
# Did you fall in love in 2003?
and then some.
# How many one night stands?
whoa, none.
# What was your favourite TV programme?
real world, although i for the most part watched like NO tv
# Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not really...i don't care about anyone that much that i don't like. maybe mr. governor, though. dumb fuck.
# What was the best book you read?
slavenka drakulic's Cafe Europa, for history 5 last spring, probably.
# What was your greatest musical discovery?
god who knows...
# What did you want and get?
true love
# What did you want and not get?
more friends haha
# What was your favourite film of this year?
god i dunno. i don't watch a lot of movies, especially that came out this year.
# What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i'm 19, and for my birthday i went out to dinner, once with my family, once with friends.
# What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
two words: less crying
# How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
i think for the most part i own more clothing that i actually like now than i used to, but there's no real "concept" or anything
# What kept you sane?
doug, my friends
# Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
um...*shrugs*
# What political issue stirred you the most?
shit about religion hehe
# Who did you miss?
i missed how people used to be that i could no longer be friends with.
# Who was the best new person you met?
i don't really know who i met that was new, so it's difficult to say.
# Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003:
everything's gonna turn out okay in the end.
# Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"i could explode because you just never, you never know." (the starting line -- lasting impressions)