i had to give you away.
today my mom came. she keeps asking me what's wrong, but i dont know. who is this person? where am i? where did i go? i have no idea. this was one of the hardest days of my life. i think we decided that i am going to take a break from college and take some time to get better and work and save money. they want me to come home. i want to stay here. i dont know what to do. my life is overflowing with i dont know's. i am sure of nothing and everything at the same time. but as i stood amidst the color swirls and glass in a botanical garden, i was reunited with my father. i have not seen him in months, however, hearing his voice from a million miles away helped and destroyed me at the same time. the walls are crumbling down around me, and i have nothing to hold on for.