Detaaaaaaaaaails.
Buenos dias! Bonjour! Guten tag! Aloha! Hi!
Thank you for riding "It's a Small World" today here at The Magic Kingdom! Please grab all your belongings and exit the tram to your right.
Sooo I said I would give details on that whole agent shmagent thing (see, I'm so big now I don't even care that I have an AGENT - omg yes I totally do). And here I am! Am I a follow-through kinda gal or WHAT? Don't answer that.
Alright, so I show up at the call-back auditions feeling totally cool and calm and THAT IS A HUGE LIE. All that big talk I did in my entry about getting (originally, I spelled that as gitting. Just so you knows) rid of the anxiety was exactly that. A lot of big talk. I had dinosaurs raging against the mysterious "they just up and died" disease in my stomach. That's how intense this shit was. I kept telling myself "Dude. You're going to get this. You're awesome. This is just a HUGE stepping stone and that water your about to cross over is your anxiety, that's all." (I actually wasn't thinking that 'cause I just made it up, but it makes sense, non?).
I walk in and the receptionist that I know from Sketchworks and stuff is there and she immediately makes me feel relaxed. She starts talking to me about what a great show we had Monday night for the Girls' Fight Club benefit and just being really chill and calm, not at all intimidating which is what I needed. Just to throw that out there, they are very warm and welcoming in this agency. More than I would've thought which is GREAT. Totally what us fragile, insecure, ego-ridden actors need, you know?
So she hands me a script after combing through the file folder and says "Hmmm which one do I want to give you... let's see... ooh. Here. I wanna give you this one." She hands it to me and I sit down to read it and get familiar with it. It was a cute little "dark comedy" script about a girl who says she has to take pills to get through weddings because she's single. I didn't connect with it right away, but after about 10 minutes I was feeling better.
I'd only been there for about 15 minutes when they called me back to audition. I met the owner and the other film agent and spoke with them for a second (totally making them laugh, I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW) since they weren't there at my first audition. Anyway, it's a TOTALLY quick audition. I did the reading, they said it was great, asked me my age and then told me to call back the next day and check in to see what's up.
I left feeling not 100% confident, 'cause I didn't do the reading as well as I would've liked. But the next day when I callllled... well. Obviously i did well! I've been put on a 6 month contract 'cause they apparently have a lot of girls in my age range already. But as my agent said I "have more character" which made me feel like a million bucks. I just can't wait to start getting submitted for stuff. I really can't and I hope I make my way through and start getting tons of auditions. I'm just ready to really, really sink my teeth in, you know?
I want to be an actor. I am going to be an actor.
Gotta sign my contract this week and I also have an audition for student films for the Art Institute this week. No pay, but experience. And that's what I really need right now. Plus if I get cast, I can always put it on my demo reel, you know?
I am so happy.
PS - Can I just say how I want an entire room filled with miniatures? I forgot how obsessed and in love with them I am until Jason and I went to Lowe's today and I stood with my mouth open for 15 minutes watching the little Christmas town scenes. God, i love that stuff. I WANT THEM AND I WANT THEM NOW.
PPS - Jason introduced me to baked squash and it is the MOST AMAZING THING EVER. Dare I say it... almost as good as chocolate for that yummy, comforting food feeling. I wouldn't lie to you people.
PPSSSPSPPSS - Life is good. Did you know that? Now you do.
Thank you for riding "It's a Small World" today here at The Magic Kingdom! Please grab all your belongings and exit the tram to your right.
Sooo I said I would give details on that whole agent shmagent thing (see, I'm so big now I don't even care that I have an AGENT - omg yes I totally do). And here I am! Am I a follow-through kinda gal or WHAT? Don't answer that.
Alright, so I show up at the call-back auditions feeling totally cool and calm and THAT IS A HUGE LIE. All that big talk I did in my entry about getting (originally, I spelled that as gitting. Just so you knows) rid of the anxiety was exactly that. A lot of big talk. I had dinosaurs raging against the mysterious "they just up and died" disease in my stomach. That's how intense this shit was. I kept telling myself "Dude. You're going to get this. You're awesome. This is just a HUGE stepping stone and that water your about to cross over is your anxiety, that's all." (I actually wasn't thinking that 'cause I just made it up, but it makes sense, non?).
I walk in and the receptionist that I know from Sketchworks and stuff is there and she immediately makes me feel relaxed. She starts talking to me about what a great show we had Monday night for the Girls' Fight Club benefit and just being really chill and calm, not at all intimidating which is what I needed. Just to throw that out there, they are very warm and welcoming in this agency. More than I would've thought which is GREAT. Totally what us fragile, insecure, ego-ridden actors need, you know?
So she hands me a script after combing through the file folder and says "Hmmm which one do I want to give you... let's see... ooh. Here. I wanna give you this one." She hands it to me and I sit down to read it and get familiar with it. It was a cute little "dark comedy" script about a girl who says she has to take pills to get through weddings because she's single. I didn't connect with it right away, but after about 10 minutes I was feeling better.
I'd only been there for about 15 minutes when they called me back to audition. I met the owner and the other film agent and spoke with them for a second (totally making them laugh, I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW) since they weren't there at my first audition. Anyway, it's a TOTALLY quick audition. I did the reading, they said it was great, asked me my age and then told me to call back the next day and check in to see what's up.
I left feeling not 100% confident, 'cause I didn't do the reading as well as I would've liked. But the next day when I callllled... well. Obviously i did well! I've been put on a 6 month contract 'cause they apparently have a lot of girls in my age range already. But as my agent said I "have more character" which made me feel like a million bucks. I just can't wait to start getting submitted for stuff. I really can't and I hope I make my way through and start getting tons of auditions. I'm just ready to really, really sink my teeth in, you know?
I want to be an actor. I am going to be an actor.
Gotta sign my contract this week and I also have an audition for student films for the Art Institute this week. No pay, but experience. And that's what I really need right now. Plus if I get cast, I can always put it on my demo reel, you know?
I am so happy.
PS - Can I just say how I want an entire room filled with miniatures? I forgot how obsessed and in love with them I am until Jason and I went to Lowe's today and I stood with my mouth open for 15 minutes watching the little Christmas town scenes. God, i love that stuff. I WANT THEM AND I WANT THEM NOW.
PPS - Jason introduced me to baked squash and it is the MOST AMAZING THING EVER. Dare I say it... almost as good as chocolate for that yummy, comforting food feeling. I wouldn't lie to you people.
PPSSSPSPPSS - Life is good. Did you know that? Now you do.