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After the last day of not believing Jordan's suicide actually happened, its finally started to sink in. It just doesn't seem real. After finding out yesterday around 1:30, I spent the rest of the day crying. Today was a little better, but not much.
I just don't understand and I think thats why I'm having such a hard time.
I hate talking to Dakota about this because I can only imagine that its killing him, but I want to be there for him in every way that I can since I can't physically be there. They grew up together, they've been best friends for over 10 years. I can't even fathom something like this happening to anyone I care so much about.
Dakota asked me to write something about Jordan since we won't be able to make it to the service. *We being Alissa and I.*
I don't know what to write about him for Dakota to take to the memorial service. I wasn't going to do it, but Dakota sent me an email that said "i'm making a "list" of goodbyes / reflections about jordan and i will be bringing them to his parents at the memorial. I would appreciate it if you could write a small reflection so i could incorporate it with the others, i know that you and Alissa still meant a lot to Jordan."
This made my heart drop.
There is a facebook group for him and its very sweet. It made me laugh, it made me cry.
I've never had to write anything like this before. There's so much I can say, I just don't know how to do it.
His mother wrote me on facebook. I can't imagine what she's going through, but I think she's trying to help the rest of us understand.
I just hope he can hear all of us and I hope he knows how much he is missed and how much we all love him.
I just don't understand and I think thats why I'm having such a hard time.
I hate talking to Dakota about this because I can only imagine that its killing him, but I want to be there for him in every way that I can since I can't physically be there. They grew up together, they've been best friends for over 10 years. I can't even fathom something like this happening to anyone I care so much about.
Dakota asked me to write something about Jordan since we won't be able to make it to the service. *We being Alissa and I.*
I don't know what to write about him for Dakota to take to the memorial service. I wasn't going to do it, but Dakota sent me an email that said "i'm making a "list" of goodbyes / reflections about jordan and i will be bringing them to his parents at the memorial. I would appreciate it if you could write a small reflection so i could incorporate it with the others, i know that you and Alissa still meant a lot to Jordan."
This made my heart drop.
There is a facebook group for him and its very sweet. It made me laugh, it made me cry.
I've never had to write anything like this before. There's so much I can say, I just don't know how to do it.
His mother wrote me on facebook. I can't imagine what she's going through, but I think she's trying to help the rest of us understand.
I just hope he can hear all of us and I hope he knows how much he is missed and how much we all love him.