the secrets i will keep

[derz714]

tear, tear, tear! vacation is over. i'm starting to miss waking up and watching 2 hours of dawson's creek everyday! anyways, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday i worked. wednesday and thursday was only me and john.. which was awkward in a "it's wicked quiet and there's no where for us to look but at each other" kinda awkward. wednesday at work, me and katy shared some of our sexual escapades. lol.. some of our experiences were VERY similar. thursday, i was forgotten at work. i waited a 30 minutes for a ride and called everyone. finally someone came to get me. fags. friday.. what. a. day. i work up at 8:40 and had a bagel and ice coffee. then i started cleaning my room as i watched dawson's creek. don't make fun. lol. i got done cleaning around 12ish. then i got ready and hung out outside as i watched my brothers, evan and brian get their stuff together for the day. brian brought me to missy's and i hung out there for an hour. we talked, listened to music, etc. then around 2 we got a ride to krissi's. me and missy picked out krissi's clothes and then i straightened her hair as we all listened to missy's mix cds. we had fun with that. then ducky picked up the 3 of us after he ate at bhop. we went to the community center to visit "mommy", aka kevin lesinski. i had talked to kevin the night before so he already knew i was gonna visit.. well he also said to.. besides the point. lol. of course i was the last one to walk in and we all saw kevin walk from the arcade to the outside kitchen counter. he like stopped in his tracks. bitch cute his hair! NO MORE CURLS AHH!! well i still like his haircut and krissi does not. ducky and missy played pool as kevin sat at the wall and watched. it was awkward.. there deff was some tension there.. whether good/sexual or just bad/uncomfortable tension.. it was still tension. ducky laughed at me the whole time.. random laughter.. bitch. jk. everytime i looked up from the pool table i caught kevin just looking at me and all we did we smile and nod our heads. we looked at each other differently. then he randomlly got up and went outside for 5 minutes. i wanted to go look for him so me, krissi, and missy headed for the main door and kevin had just opened it. i had to avoid the looks we would give ecah other and the awkwardness and tension and such so i kept building up conversations. the 4 of us sat outside for a while as ducky stayed inside playing basket ball. we all talked.. thank god. i kept beating kevin up with my lipgloss.. too much fun with that. lol. then some 3 foot 12 year old came by saying he got suspended from school for stabbing someone. uh kay. lol. then ducky came outside and i guess now he's kevin's cousin. lol. ducky is NOW apart of the family. we all talked and then went back inside and got ready to leave since the community center was about to close. we all said bye to "mommy" and since ducky kept laughing as i went to whisper in kev's ear "kick his ass for me".. which he said he would.. lol.. krissi pushed my head into his and lets just say our heads came a little too close. out of NO where.. ducky, krissi, and missy start running to the car.. i saw ducky running and i fell to my knees laughing hysterically. ducky's pants basically fell off and he was running trying to keep his pants from going to feet. missy turned her head as she was running and saw ducky and fell. then they drove away without me and i was too lazy to chase so i walked back to the center.. but then ducky backed up and i jumped into the car and trampled missy. lol. we started singing "you give love a bad name" by jon jovi. we drove to colt state park to watch the lacrosse game.. well some of it anyways. after halftime we went to bhop and then ducky left for work. me, krissi, and missy went to dunkin donuts and then ben and jake came. they gave us a ride to krissi's and then missy came over my house as we waited for krissi to finish cleaning the dishwasher and come over. we hung out and listened to music and then watched eurotrip which was funny. saturday i did nothing all day except watch a whole bunch of movies.. making me cry and think the whole fucking day. ugh. at night i listened to a lot of music and stayed up late thinking about so much shit. anyway.. rather not even talk about that. sunday i woke up and went to band. sally stayed over my house after band and then i basically didn't do much. today was school and i went home after guitar. good conversation with louie today. oh and i found out after graduation louie's going to cali. had to go to the doctor's today to run some tests and yep. that's about it.. until next time.

california here we come.