May 25, 2004 04:18
I know it has been ages and ages. I have been working for a retail chain and i quit a few weeks ago. Been a busy heffa. Me and michael have broken up too. I just didn't love that man i tried my hardest for he is a good person. But it just was not there. I striked up a far too distant relationship with an online friend from the past. He and i seem to fit together. We have been growing closer and closer and i like that. for once i am happy and i am being my silly self. I was just so tired of feeling so obligated to do this feel this way spare the child kind of feelings ya know?
This of course has had some downfall of it's own kind. I will not go into for fear it will sadden me when i do not need to be. Have u ever felt like nothing u do is acceptable that everything u try it just gets thrown back in your face? like when u wanna please everyone and u just can't. If i was powerful nobody would be sad or dramatic just in harmony.
If i am rambling i am sorry. I keep getting woke up by freaking nightmares! ugh! i hate dreaming when it's bad. TV gives me headaches <