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ok, so i was writing this big whole thing, clicked update and my internet got retarted. so im going to summarize with some bullets.
*got a 103 on my A-AP Physics B test which was supposed to be the hardest test of the year.
*Kendall is sick and i havent seen her since friday and only talked to her for about 20 minutes across two time periods.
*im very stressed out lately (ill go into a little more detail with that in a minute)
*i think i might skip morning periods and lie down in bed with kendall because shes likely to be staying home tomorrow
about my stress.
these last few weeks have been very stressful. everything is piling up. i feel so alone. ive been crying a lot. this morning i was standing in the shower and just started crying and it took me about 20 minutes before i realized why i was crying. its like i sit here and i lie in bed awake and i want to throw a pillow over there and wake him up and talk to him, but theres no one there and im just losing my pillow. its so hard. i dont touch his stuff much but lately my mom has been trying to get me to move it all up to the attic, either by me doing it or her, and everytime she says something i just say 'yeah' and i dont do anything because i dont want to and i dont think she understands that. i dont think she realizes that i dont want it gone, i want it right where it is, right where he would want it. if im going to pack it up to the attic, i might as well throw it away, its all ive got left. i miss him. its so hard. i just pray everyday that none of you ever have to experience this. its so painful, what im going through.
anyways, Kendall i love you sweetie, i hope you feel better.
a-c i miss you so much. i still love you.
why do i listen to sad music when im sad?
*got a 103 on my A-AP Physics B test which was supposed to be the hardest test of the year.
*Kendall is sick and i havent seen her since friday and only talked to her for about 20 minutes across two time periods.
*im very stressed out lately (ill go into a little more detail with that in a minute)
*i think i might skip morning periods and lie down in bed with kendall because shes likely to be staying home tomorrow
about my stress.
these last few weeks have been very stressful. everything is piling up. i feel so alone. ive been crying a lot. this morning i was standing in the shower and just started crying and it took me about 20 minutes before i realized why i was crying. its like i sit here and i lie in bed awake and i want to throw a pillow over there and wake him up and talk to him, but theres no one there and im just losing my pillow. its so hard. i dont touch his stuff much but lately my mom has been trying to get me to move it all up to the attic, either by me doing it or her, and everytime she says something i just say 'yeah' and i dont do anything because i dont want to and i dont think she understands that. i dont think she realizes that i dont want it gone, i want it right where it is, right where he would want it. if im going to pack it up to the attic, i might as well throw it away, its all ive got left. i miss him. its so hard. i just pray everyday that none of you ever have to experience this. its so painful, what im going through.
anyways, Kendall i love you sweetie, i hope you feel better.
a-c i miss you so much. i still love you.
why do i listen to sad music when im sad?