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I am so sleep deprived. To give you the context, I feel refreshed after ten hours of sleep. I can function with eight hours, if need to be and without interruption seven hours a day. Milo, 2 years old next month, has always been sleeping in our bedroom. When going to bed and when he wakes up at night he gets the breast and is a happy puppy. Turns out he is totally addicted to it. If breastfeeding becomes painful or otherwise unbearable before he sleeps again he is cut off of course. And this is when recently a whole different kind of pain starts : screaming, chocking on his own snot and kicking for hours at a time. Usually around 4 to 5am and sometimes in the evening before sleeping, as well. I mean really, this is how I imagine drug addicts become going cold turkey. Maya is also under alot of stress, bored out of her mind and not adapting well to Germany. Me working all week until late is not helpful either. There are a few positive things to be said, as well. Actual Milo is a constant source of surprise and happiness, except when he is not (see above). There are a couple of children books that I have read so often now, that I can cite them entirely, which is really helpful in many situations. I have almost mastered Dr. Seuss' Oh The Place You'll Go. Only that I am too impatient to learn The Waiting Place completely.