Ahh...finally.
This last week has been an absolute blessing.
Not only have i gotten a chance to be with a woman that i love dearly, but it's....well, it's been undescribeable. I feel a connection that's finally working between her and me and it's been making my heart just flutter. I love her and her little quirks more than anything and everytime i see her i get extremely excited. I have been on cloud 9 for the sole reason that i think this relationship has the best chance of working.
There are only a few things that make me worry about this situation. The first one is her kid. As much as i love him to pieces and want nothing more in life to start a family, i can't help but have this uneasy feeling in my stomach that i might be biting off more than i can chew. The thought that maybe i should be waiting; i mean, fuck, i'm only 21 (22 in a month!) and getting ready to start a family of my own. The other thing that scares me is school. I don't know if i can be a father figure, a full-time student and a McD's manager all at one time! I barely make it through working full time and school as it is without going balls deep into debt. I won't see either of them much and if i do get to see them, i'm afraid that my nose will be buried deep within books and math equations.
But til then, i merely won't think about it. I am going to spend time with them and give them all my love. We get to go to the coast together the first week of August and i am going to enjoy every minute of it and cherish it as it were my last. I guess that's what love does to a person's heart and for that i am extremely grateful.
Not only have i gotten a chance to be with a woman that i love dearly, but it's....well, it's been undescribeable. I feel a connection that's finally working between her and me and it's been making my heart just flutter. I love her and her little quirks more than anything and everytime i see her i get extremely excited. I have been on cloud 9 for the sole reason that i think this relationship has the best chance of working.
There are only a few things that make me worry about this situation. The first one is her kid. As much as i love him to pieces and want nothing more in life to start a family, i can't help but have this uneasy feeling in my stomach that i might be biting off more than i can chew. The thought that maybe i should be waiting; i mean, fuck, i'm only 21 (22 in a month!) and getting ready to start a family of my own. The other thing that scares me is school. I don't know if i can be a father figure, a full-time student and a McD's manager all at one time! I barely make it through working full time and school as it is without going balls deep into debt. I won't see either of them much and if i do get to see them, i'm afraid that my nose will be buried deep within books and math equations.
But til then, i merely won't think about it. I am going to spend time with them and give them all my love. We get to go to the coast together the first week of August and i am going to enjoy every minute of it and cherish it as it were my last. I guess that's what love does to a person's heart and for that i am extremely grateful.