Act your age
You know what's kind of bullshit? I haven't been with a guy for over a year and a half now. I know I'm not much for dating, but that's some bullshit. I know asstards worse than me who get dates-- I'm just a reject, it seems.
I say I'm not much for dating, but that's just my self-esteem making up for it's own lacking. I'd love to get with a guy, but I don't believe in myself. Whoops, my bad. I'm just gonna be a visual whore for a while, then go stomp a mini-Tokyo to get some release (lord knows I can't master my own domain with so many flatmates around, which is poopy). God.
I'm not drunk. Just saying.
That's one of my asstard fears-- never having loved someone truly. Call me a romantic, I believe in love. I don't believe in 'one true love' but I believe in love. I used to be okay with the idea that I'd never find him, but as time goes on I realize how fucking stupid that is.
Ugh... This made sense in my head earlier. I hate that whole "I've got so much to say, now it's just a matter of getting it through my fingers aaand... oops, lost it." thing.
I need more gay friend, too. I used to have a lot in school, and now I have none. Also, I find myself acting more faggy every day. I'm annoying myself. My eye itches. I'm going to sleep.
Addendum: Wow, I don't remember writing this. I really wasn't drunk even though I went to the bar last night. Whatever, I'm lj-cutting this shit, haha.
I say I'm not much for dating, but that's just my self-esteem making up for it's own lacking. I'd love to get with a guy, but I don't believe in myself. Whoops, my bad. I'm just gonna be a visual whore for a while, then go stomp a mini-Tokyo to get some release (lord knows I can't master my own domain with so many flatmates around, which is poopy). God.
I'm not drunk. Just saying.
That's one of my asstard fears-- never having loved someone truly. Call me a romantic, I believe in love. I don't believe in 'one true love' but I believe in love. I used to be okay with the idea that I'd never find him, but as time goes on I realize how fucking stupid that is.
Ugh... This made sense in my head earlier. I hate that whole "I've got so much to say, now it's just a matter of getting it through my fingers aaand... oops, lost it." thing.
I need more gay friend, too. I used to have a lot in school, and now I have none. Also, I find myself acting more faggy every day. I'm annoying myself. My eye itches. I'm going to sleep.
Addendum: Wow, I don't remember writing this. I really wasn't drunk even though I went to the bar last night. Whatever, I'm lj-cutting this shit, haha.