Falling, falling, falling...
I'm counting the current batch of issues that are pressing down on me as leftovers from 2007, as none of them started in 2008. In some ways, I feel like our house is actually at the eye of the storm - we don't have any big illness, no massive breakdown in our marriage, no family company struggling to pull itself out of a hole, no massive changes in life-direction, no massively mounting unmanageable personal debts, nothing like that! But it's all around us - in our family and with a few of our friends - and the pressure sort of gets to you after a while. (Or did you not get my superlative here - massive!)
I know God says to trust Him, and to let things go that we cannot change, but I feel more like I'm in a vise at the moment, being pressed and squeezed, and it's not so much that I need to let things go as to somehow shrug out of the grip of everything that feels like it's holding me! What I'm actually afraid of doing is clamping down to hard on those closest to me and demanding, unreasonably, that things not change in their lives just so that there is some sense of stability in my close mental circle. That won't do any good. It's not stability that is needed, but acceptance that things will change and the ability to ride the flow, not fight it. But as anyone who has ever been in the eye of a storm will tell you, when you've got those massive clouds surrounding you, knowing that the storm is there and knowing that it's going to hit you sooner or later, you do a lot of worrying, and you lose a lot of peace...
Anyway, prayer would be appreciated, for those who do so. Thanks.
I know God says to trust Him, and to let things go that we cannot change, but I feel more like I'm in a vise at the moment, being pressed and squeezed, and it's not so much that I need to let things go as to somehow shrug out of the grip of everything that feels like it's holding me! What I'm actually afraid of doing is clamping down to hard on those closest to me and demanding, unreasonably, that things not change in their lives just so that there is some sense of stability in my close mental circle. That won't do any good. It's not stability that is needed, but acceptance that things will change and the ability to ride the flow, not fight it. But as anyone who has ever been in the eye of a storm will tell you, when you've got those massive clouds surrounding you, knowing that the storm is there and knowing that it's going to hit you sooner or later, you do a lot of worrying, and you lose a lot of peace...
Anyway, prayer would be appreciated, for those who do so. Thanks.