people
went to the hatebreed show at the norva last night and realized something...
man, im fuckin over alot of people, oh well.
i'm in love, i didn't expect it to come so soon again, but it has, and its amazing
it happened so blindly and out of the blue, and im very happy with that.
shes makes me think alot, thats a good thing
it helps me to put value on the simpler things in life
she means alot to me
i could go on for pages, but i'll spare you all.
there is a long-time friend of mine thats pretty special to me
and i've been leaving them out and letting them down
i dont do it on purpose, but im an idiot and get caught up in my own life too much
i hope they can forgive me for it
i want to do something awesome for them to let them know how sorry i am
i admire those who are completely blunt and honest in their journals, i can't be that way
i'm a people pleaser and im afraid of upsetting them
i don't think most people who read this would ever think of me the same way again if i were so honest
hindsight is 20/20
looking back, a few of the people that i used to surround myself with are full of shit
they are completely ignorant to the fact that they have become what they have said that they hate
its a good possibility that i've even become something that i said i used to hate
im jaded, but im happy
im dissapointed, but im content
im broke, but im rich
im worried, but im confident
im dead, but im alive
im not the same person i was 6 months ago
some of my friends would say this is a bad thing
some of my friends would say this is a good thing
its all in context i suppose
sometimes i just wanna grow up and get on with my life, settle into a career, get married and have kids
sometimes i think i've already grown up too much for my age
i feel like i can't act my age
i feel like i have to act much older
carry myself much different than someone who is 21
im only fucking 21, thats about a 1/4 of my life expectancy
am i wasting it? or am i using my time wisely?
who knows? who gives a fuck.
day by day, thats all i can do.
man, im fuckin over alot of people, oh well.
i'm in love, i didn't expect it to come so soon again, but it has, and its amazing
it happened so blindly and out of the blue, and im very happy with that.
shes makes me think alot, thats a good thing
it helps me to put value on the simpler things in life
she means alot to me
i could go on for pages, but i'll spare you all.
there is a long-time friend of mine thats pretty special to me
and i've been leaving them out and letting them down
i dont do it on purpose, but im an idiot and get caught up in my own life too much
i hope they can forgive me for it
i want to do something awesome for them to let them know how sorry i am
i admire those who are completely blunt and honest in their journals, i can't be that way
i'm a people pleaser and im afraid of upsetting them
i don't think most people who read this would ever think of me the same way again if i were so honest
hindsight is 20/20
looking back, a few of the people that i used to surround myself with are full of shit
they are completely ignorant to the fact that they have become what they have said that they hate
its a good possibility that i've even become something that i said i used to hate
im jaded, but im happy
im dissapointed, but im content
im broke, but im rich
im worried, but im confident
im dead, but im alive
im not the same person i was 6 months ago
some of my friends would say this is a bad thing
some of my friends would say this is a good thing
its all in context i suppose
sometimes i just wanna grow up and get on with my life, settle into a career, get married and have kids
sometimes i think i've already grown up too much for my age
i feel like i can't act my age
i feel like i have to act much older
carry myself much different than someone who is 21
im only fucking 21, thats about a 1/4 of my life expectancy
am i wasting it? or am i using my time wisely?
who knows? who gives a fuck.
day by day, thats all i can do.