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there is some psychological disorder where people think they are in a reality tv show ALL THE TIME.
i didnt know that existed until a week or so ago. but after hearing that i instantly knew i fall in this category. i dont think that this affects my decisions, i just frequently feel like i am looking at my life as an outsider, or reading a book with a 3rd person semi-omnicient point of view. i go through life as i normally would, my body and soul reacting as normal, but my brain constantly observing things as an outsider. thats the best i can think to describe it. it isnt an all the time occurance, but its frequent. ive been doing it for a long time, i just think i notice it more as i make my self more aware of it. maybe its all just a self fulfilled prophecy.
i met a boy, some say i stole him from another. i like to think of it as saving a prince from an evil captor. i used to be upset with hurting a friend, but recently ive discovered what he, and many of the other people that i have been associating with, are truly like. i no longer feel remorse for doing what i did to B, but i am upset with my self for being able to go about these actions. if Michael and i can manage to get through the drama, we will do well. if for some reason it provides a barrier, i still feel good knowing that he is truly better off.
some quick updates elsewhere:
i bought a 2008 ford focus with SYNC. (play artist... michael bolton... i mean korn),
school starts soon, i am taking an intro to language class. on some twist of fate my father is in a book club with my chemisty teacher from kirkwood, his wife happens to be my intro to language teacher. they all had some fancy schmancy dinner the other night and upon discussion learned i will be in her class this semester. she seems to be really excited about my language background. mt mercy up until very recently had no language courses, but now has lower level spanish courses. i am also very excited to be attending.
i question every day whether i will continue to be a teacher when i graduate. i am going to continue with the degree and the certification, however. my main goal at the moment are to graduate, and move to europe for at least a year. probably france.
my dear amber spent 6 weeks in spain, only to meet a nice man from france, whom she is falling in love with, thus strengthening our foriegn connections...
ive been re-reading the ender's game novels. they are still just as amazing as they were before.
i went canoeing today! it was simply amazing. i saw a wild bald eagle for the first time in my life. as well as two herons, several turtles, and several blue jays. i left nothing but foot prints and possible shards of canoe in the various logs that were smashed into, and took nothing but wonderful memories and a sun burn.
i could update all night. its been forever. but i need rest.
i didnt know that existed until a week or so ago. but after hearing that i instantly knew i fall in this category. i dont think that this affects my decisions, i just frequently feel like i am looking at my life as an outsider, or reading a book with a 3rd person semi-omnicient point of view. i go through life as i normally would, my body and soul reacting as normal, but my brain constantly observing things as an outsider. thats the best i can think to describe it. it isnt an all the time occurance, but its frequent. ive been doing it for a long time, i just think i notice it more as i make my self more aware of it. maybe its all just a self fulfilled prophecy.
i met a boy, some say i stole him from another. i like to think of it as saving a prince from an evil captor. i used to be upset with hurting a friend, but recently ive discovered what he, and many of the other people that i have been associating with, are truly like. i no longer feel remorse for doing what i did to B, but i am upset with my self for being able to go about these actions. if Michael and i can manage to get through the drama, we will do well. if for some reason it provides a barrier, i still feel good knowing that he is truly better off.
some quick updates elsewhere:
i bought a 2008 ford focus with SYNC. (play artist... michael bolton... i mean korn),
school starts soon, i am taking an intro to language class. on some twist of fate my father is in a book club with my chemisty teacher from kirkwood, his wife happens to be my intro to language teacher. they all had some fancy schmancy dinner the other night and upon discussion learned i will be in her class this semester. she seems to be really excited about my language background. mt mercy up until very recently had no language courses, but now has lower level spanish courses. i am also very excited to be attending.
i question every day whether i will continue to be a teacher when i graduate. i am going to continue with the degree and the certification, however. my main goal at the moment are to graduate, and move to europe for at least a year. probably france.
my dear amber spent 6 weeks in spain, only to meet a nice man from france, whom she is falling in love with, thus strengthening our foriegn connections...
ive been re-reading the ender's game novels. they are still just as amazing as they were before.
i went canoeing today! it was simply amazing. i saw a wild bald eagle for the first time in my life. as well as two herons, several turtles, and several blue jays. i left nothing but foot prints and possible shards of canoe in the various logs that were smashed into, and took nothing but wonderful memories and a sun burn.
i could update all night. its been forever. but i need rest.