And everyone knows I'm in over my head...
Words flow through my head faster than I can document, faster than I can express, excuse, or entertain you with. If made readily ready to be read I could impress you. If you only knew what I kept under this hat, you'd be amazed, excited, and un-alone. Suddenly, sympathetically, simply everyeone would understand that the thoughts in my heart are the same as yours, and hers and his and theirs. Take one second of a second to imagine that. Imagine I and you and we all start looking into eachothers eyes when we're listening, and toss out these other body parts eyes can get disracted by. Imagine, if I and you and we all had the patience. Imagine the world we could awaken. Here's this large lumpy piece of dirt covered in little floating eyes attached to thoughts attached to four limbs that hold us to the land, and we can't seem to recognize that we're all made up the same. Imagine, you could strip naked and look into eachother and say, "yea me too". "Yea... me too." Heh, but naked. Yea about naked. Neither of us want to be naked, maybe in the dark until we get used to it. Maybe then we'll light some candles. Then maybe, just maybe, this will get good enough that spend all of our time naked together. That just might be the goal. Us naked. Maybe that's what I'm chasing. Strike that, for the first time, I'm not chasing. I'm not chasing. Well, I'll be damned. Wait, did I give up?... no I don't think so. That must be a good thing. I'm not chasing. If you build it they will come. If you burn it they will come running. So you do, you fucking light that bridge on fire, then stand on the other bank and see if you like what you see. And then, if you do, you both cut down a few trees, and build back twards eachother. Maybe you'll meet in the middle. Maybe you'll end up reaching for the lighter again. Maybe you'll stop building and walk away unfinished. Just don't forget to realize how beautiful that river is.
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