This is why we can't have nice things......
I feel like such an idiot right now. On a whim I sent the journal I kept in China* to my host students... whom I'm afraid I offended terribly. It was just a stupid move on my part. I didn't read it to see what they would be seeing, thus didn't realize how negative much of it sounds. I've always used writing as a way to get crap and frustrations out of my head. SHIIIIT. I just realized I had sent it to Dr. Peng as well upon getting home last summer. I SUCK.
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I don't know what to do. I just finished writing apologies to all of them. I really hope that they understand that I what I was tring to express. There's no words for what an ass I feel like right now. I just hurt people that treated me so well, by being careless. And I'll probably never get a chance to apologize in person. =( I need to stop typing and leave the computer because the only words in my head are explitives.
*See September 1, 04
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I don't know what to do. I just finished writing apologies to all of them. I really hope that they understand that I what I was tring to express. There's no words for what an ass I feel like right now. I just hurt people that treated me so well, by being careless. And I'll probably never get a chance to apologize in person. =( I need to stop typing and leave the computer because the only words in my head are explitives.
*See September 1, 04