Sep 03, 2004 08:04
Okay. So I have noticed the weird coldness that jere has shown torwards me the past few weeks, but I just attributed it to the new semester starting, and that he wanted to be spending alot of time with Marco. Apparently it wasn't just that. I can't be mad, because he is such a wonderful guy, and he hasn't done anything wrong really. He has just expressed his fears that we are too attached, or to serious as he put it. I didn't think we were too serious because we always just did our own thing. Maybe he is just scared of a commitment, he has even said it himself. I don't think his mom with constantly asking for us to come over and that she wanted to see me more. And his dad w/ the whole me asking about diving, and saying that the next time they went diving I could go along for my certification dives. *shrugs. Who knows. I can't be mad, becuase I just don't have it in me. We never have fought or really yelled at each other. The only time he even snapped at me was after his grandfather passed away. So basically its the waiting game again. I know no matter what we will still be friends, but I don't really want our relationship to end. Especially now. I just feel awful that because he is confused about how he feels for me, it is affecting his sleeping and study habits. I told him to take all the time he needs. Its just hard because I don't know where we stand.
On other topics.. School is going fine. Rush is almost over thank god. I don't know if I can handle another week of all this stuff. I want my life back. I hate having to leave work early and pretty much been living and breathing AKPsi this whole week. I like having lunch dates with people during the week, even though my sched is hell.
Clubbing should be fun this weekend, though I don'tknow if i really want to go. I don't knowif I really want to go to blowout either. It will be fun to chill with my grandparents at some point this weekend, and I will unpack all my stuff, and even get caught up on my homework.
ok. well, speaking of homework, I really should do my math now....
until later.
ok, instead of making a new entry I just went in and edited this one a little bit, so currenlty I am working, but listening to my history lectures...trying to keep up with the class.